well I know the things you wear too easy
come on
fuck off
dont tell me anything
I can't hear my thoughts through this broken mind
get up
get up
just tell me everything
just tell yourself
for your beliefs
fuck yourself for what you need
dont believe a word I say
really doesn't Matter anyway
dont believe a word I say
well everything you know is just what they want you to think
come on fuck off
dont tell me anything
I know that everything will be just fine
get up
get up
just tell me anything
just tell yourself
for your beliefs
fuck yourself for what you need
dont believe a word I say
it really doesn't matter anyway
You never really knew
the things you learned would matter;
the things you did and didn't do would someday find you;
the things you hate the most :
the lessons on piano,
the books you read in Sunday school--
I swear I'd trade in anything to be young again.
And all these things
are lessons in living
It seems like we're all fighting to be more than who we are.
Life's been a test of virtue and humility so far.
cause give and take don't matter either way.
Fuck up and draw the lottery;
Roshambo for poverty.
Destination: anywhere but here.
Here I go again,
feeling sorry for myself.
Am I getting old at heart--
too old to pretend
that everything's alright?
Have I had a choice?
Walking past a threshold
into the change
and your life's never the same again.
And all these things
are lessons in living.
It seems like were all fighting to be more than who we are.
Life's been a test of virtue and humility so far.
'cause give and take don't matter either way.
Fuck up and draw the lottery;
Roshambo for poverty.
Destination: anywhere but here.
My mind's open.
I scream for better things.
It seems like were all fighting to be more than who we are.
Life's been a test of virtue and humility so far.
'cause give and take don't matter either way.
Fuck up and draw the lottery;
Roshambo for poverty.
You'll dance and laugh and cry
I'm dreaming dreams that wont come true
Don't bat your eyes
You care for yourself and others too
But me you treat like a disease
And now I think it's true
Don't look at me that way
My heart is all I have
Will you ever stop?
Your words cut deep
Will you ever stop throwing me away?
The red head vs. the pretty red bracelet
You're all that's wrong with me
You rip and tear
Call me when you're through
She's kind you're not
She's sweet you're not
That's the last time I trust a red head
Silence falls upon us
The music stops for a bit
Smoke paints a picture of you
the night skys black and i'm awake lying on the ground.
the grass beneath my feet is hard and cold just like i've come to be.
the stars are gone behind the clouds and i can't see a thing
so i'll just let my eyes stay closed just like me, i can't open up.
cause i'm all wrong and i don't see a chance to fix this head
so just give up. write me off, pretend i don't exist.
there's something in an empty bed that makes it hard to close your eyes.
it can eat at you until they both turn black and blue
and all you want is a reason you should live
or a way for you to die, a way for you to die.
the grounds opening up. i'm falling down below
an endless fall into a place that i don't think a child should know.
and i'm screaming out a name that could never pass my lips.
the poison in my veins that got me through her kiss.
and now i'm too hung up on that to have anything with you,
it's the poison in my veins,
the poison in my veins
Well, Today is the 15th.
And you know what that means,
Time to sit and go through boxes of old pictures.
See if I can bring myself to,
The brink of giving up,
I never follow through, you tell me all the time.
Spend my days looking back,
And I wonder if you're looking up,
From underneath someone who is able to be, everything that I'm not.
I'm visiting that grave,
And the epitaph has already been chiseled in my mind,
I'm breaking it all down right now,
The way I should have let you go,
And let you ruin one life instead of two.
I'll spend tonight by myself,
For the first time, I'll try to look ahead,
And find something that,
Isn't doomed like we were,
Now all I need,
Is a second chance.
Spend my days looking back,
And I wonder if you're looking up,
Tony, your life's not over,
but you've given up all you lived for.
Put the bottle down and fix the thing you ran from.
Do you say what you really mean?
Are you really how you're perceived to be?
If the lights go out tomorrow,would you know?
I don't wanna call your family and tell them to build a coffin,
because their oldest son just overdosed on pills.
You've got a red glare in your eyes,
and the sky outside your door's a blacker blue.
I hate to see what's become of you.
Tony, it's just a stick in the spokes.
It's not too late for you to find your way home,
because your friends are still here,
and your family's where you left them.
So put on a clear head and try it out for a ride,
because you're better than this and you can better your life.
You can't choose your father,
we're suffering together.
You're getting closer to the end of your rope.
I never thought you'd let yourself get so cold.
But lately I've been thinking about the things I said to you,
and now I need to prove that
I didn't mean it when I said, that you were dead to me.
So I sit here writing words in our old place
They all come out as letter
And I contemplate mistakes that we all make
We start at the ending of errors
When history fades we identify the problems
But they may not be problems after all
Shock and dismay they affect what we say
We should bite out tongues
We should bite our tongues
Because after all it's only our lives anyway
And I can't let it bother me
If fact and fate just can't agree on love on life
Can we stop taking ourselves too seriously?
So I sit here carving words into the walls
Words that remind me of just how I was
I never felt as old and lonely
As I felt when I was young and in love
When history fades we identify the problems
But they may not be problems after all
Shock and dismay they affect what we say
We should bite out tongues
We should bite our tongues
Because after all it's only our lives anyway
And I can't let it bother me
If fact and fate just can't agree on love on life
Can we stop taking ourselves too seriously?
This is the first scene of an act with my own hands stuck in my back
Around here, the puppet is the puppeteer
And I was down for the proverbial count
So what do you want from me? (So what do you want from me?)
Another song about apathy?
Heartbreak is a friend these days, but I couldn't care less
That's what I get paid to say
I am lost a lot
But you can't believe me and my stomach knots
You can't see that
Whoa oh, I can't find my way
Whoa oh, I can't find it
Should I say something sensational now?
This life comes with some doubts
Da da da...
And now my life has become a circus
In the center ring, I'm the crying clown
It's a little too exciting on the trapeze
When you swing with your eyes glued to the ground
And make feel like a boomerang
You push it out, it comes back again
Heartbreak is a trend these days
I couldn't care less
Never been that trendy anyway
I am lost a lot
But you can't believe me and my stomach knots
You can't see that
Whoa oh, I can't find my way
Whoa oh, I can't find it
Should I say something sensational now?
This life comes with some doubts
We'll go along thinking everything is wrong
Watch our lives from afar
But looking back is not so bad
Realize what you've been missing
Da da da...
Whoa oh, I can't find my way
Whoa oh, I can't find my way
Whoa oh, I can't find my way
I've seen you bite your nails
In guilty thought, thought you couldn't care less
'Til I saw those paws
I'd say you took a bite for every lie you told
You'd of run out of fingers & start on your toes
(Chorus)
Don't think you're onto something good right now
So lets go back to the starting place
& I believe in futures, but I can't afford to wait
You've been doing it the wrong way
& someday you'll find something that makes you feel okay
Until then you make your own way
You're the type of girl who puts on cyanide perfume
Then asks for kisses on the neck from every boy in the room
So tell me now how you find yourself
At the bottom of a bottle in a bar
& how your reflection reacts to your new scars
(Chorus)
I don't think you're onto something good right now (x2)
So lets go back to the starting place
& I believe in futures, but I can't afford to wait
You've been doing it the wrong way
& someday you'll find something that makes you feel okay
Until then you make your own way
All's well that ends well
I'm finished with this game
There's got to be a better way then learning from your mistakes
A small step for man now with you out of the way
But now it's up to me to change
Making so tomorrow starts today
& I believe in futures, but I can't afford to wait
You've been doing it the wrong way
& someday you'll find something that makes you feel okay
I'm weak like a one-armed boxer
Throwing punch after punch
After punch I, I give in
I'm so dumb, I'm surprised
When they duck
Scared, paired walking soldiers.
We're all wounded anyway
In our respective ways
Scientists they couldn't fix me
I'm so tired of getting out of bed
But who would want to die as a cowardly little child?
When our time is up, will we be ashamed or proud?
You stretch the truth like a crooked salesman
Telling lie after lie
After lie, but where's the line?
You burn bridges, you're breaking down dams
Scientists they couldn't fix me
I'm so tired of getting out of bed
But who would want to die as a cowardly little child?
When our time is up, will we be ashamed or proud?
Let's take this train for one last stop, I know
It's not the end, but it can't be that far
Scientists they couldn't fix me
I'm so tired of getting out of bed
But who would want to die as a cowardly little child?
When our time is up, then our time is up
Scientists they couldn't fix me
I'm so tired of getting out of bed
Who would want to die as a cowardly little child?
If our world falls down tomorrow
You be sure I'll be there with a net
To catch the pieces falling
And I was always there
And I was always there
I was always there
But you just never knew where
Ay oh, ay oh, I hope you weren't waiting long
I hope this night makes up for time lost
Ay oh, ay oh, feels like I met you years ago
And we're picking up right where we left off
I've considered what it'd be like
If the ocean poured in from both of the coasts
And we set sail to find out
Just where our boat would go
But I don't think that I'd want to know
'Cuz it would just make time
So I can see your smile
With our brand new life in tow
Ay oh, ay oh, I hope you weren't waiting long
I hope this night makes up for time lost
Ay oh, ay oh, feels like I met you years ago
And we're picking up right where we left off
Right where we left off
And if I'm on the road for another thousand years or so
I hope you know a part of me is at home
Not trading brick for straw in the house I built around my heart
So when you came with me so tough
No huff and puff could dismantle us
No huff and puff could dismantle us
Ay oh, ay oh, I hope you weren't waiting long
I hope this night makes up for time lost
Ay oh, ay oh, feels like I met you years ago
And we're picking up right where we left off
I had all the half way point in between progress & alone
Forever more I am a faded sweatshirt you forgot was hanging on the closet door
But it's the ride it's not the point your at
& about treating everyday like it could be your last
One day it will, one day it will
& we'll all praise you at your funeral for this life you tried to build
(Chorus)
Spend all my life waiting for a moment to come, to come
Walking single file waiting for a moment to come but it won't
I'm half way to happy now & I always mistake it for progress
For progress
Morning comes, your beds a safe place
Your eyelids blocking pain but standing in the way
Stay off the brink
Come whatever may hope for the best but okay with anything
Lets get a life allow ourselves to change
Don't be convinced everything will stay the same
Your beaten down like everyone
But can a person make a difference if he never makes a sound?
I spend all my life waiting for a moment to come, to come,
Walking single file waiting for a moment to come but it won't
I'm half way to happy now & I always mistake it for progress
For progress
For progress
Spend all my life waiting for a moment to come, to come
Walking single file waiting for a moment to come, but it wont
We all like to test our will, a trial
I'm half way to happy now & I always mistake it for progress
For progress
Don't lift me up
With your strong intent on dropping me back down.
Are you like this, afraid to be yourself?
And if you somehow get through all of this
without hating yourself for all of it
and you know that I will hate you enough for the both of us.
Spent that night alone, the first in a long time
forgotten all the loneliness and darkness in my life.
But you lost a friend, the day that you let go
..to drown in the sea of regret and no one knows...
that I'm alone and I can't blame anyone but you.
Self-loathing once filled me but now I know the truth.
Spent that night alone the first in a long time,
forgotten all the loneliness and darkness in my life.
But you lost a friend the day that you let go to drown
in a sea of regret and no one knows.
Spent that night alone the first in a long time,
forgotten all the loneliness and darkness in my life.
But you lost a friend the day that you let go to drown
My friend,
You're always the last one to leave
Those dimly lit rooms.
Making sure the last glass makes its way to the table empty.
And every bottle in the place
Has been upside down
At least a few times what a waste.
Is this what's left of you these days?
You're not eighteen anymore.
Five years should have been,
enough time for you to grow up and get over this.
Not too cool to be throwing up all morning sick
from what you might have done or done it with.
And I swear if I could take your pain
And frame it and hang it on my wall,
Maybe you would never have to hurt it all.
Painting pictures in red and blue.
A portrait bruise just like you
And now you're walking away.
You're not eighteen anymore.
Five years should have been,
enough time for you to grow up and get over this.
Not too cool to be throwing up all morning sick from what you might of done.
When is enough, finally enough?
The hang-ups and the heartbreaks get you past.
Our failures lay down but just accept yourself.
Find some thing that brings you closer to complete.
Painting pictures in red and blue.
A portrait bruise just like you and now you're walking away.
You're not eighteen anymore.
Five years should have been,
enough time for you to grow up and get over this.
Not too cool to be throwing up all morning sick
From what you might of done or done it with.
When is enough, finally enough?
Quit surrounding me
i'm already down and gone
locked defeat
got your eyes pealed
the only thing holding me are
why won't you quit
dragging me around
we can tell by now
that there's no such thing as love
and i can't do anything to forget
all that you are
how, long must i wait
oh, to break
and you know it'll be easier to snap
and if by now
but you wont let me go
we can tell by now
that there's no such thing as love
and i can't do anything
to forget all that you are
and as you see
Where will I be
When there's pain as far as eyes can see
I'll stand in line for days and nights, for making up lost time
And this is how it feels
So now I cut these loveless wrists
My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away
So now I cut these loveless wrists
My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away
Away
I once felt strong
It wouldn't last for long
I wrap my hands around my neck
Kill myself again
Cut my arms with the biggest knife that I can stand
Why waste time
Lifting my head
Keep it down
And save face instead
Why waste time
Lifting my head
Keep it down
Save face instead
I once felt strong
It wouldn't last for long
I wrap my hands around my neck
Kill myself again
Cut my arms with the biggest knife that I can stand
Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someone's finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you
Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
Tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
I won't make promises
I won't make promises
You taught me that.
I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree
But what would you need me for
You've got friends galore
And all you've ever been to me is a waste of time and nothing more
Nothing is real (Nothing is real)
and I want you to know (and I want you to know)
That I'm not alright (That I'm not alright)
When you tear (tear open my chest) open my chest
(I'll try not to flinch) I'll try not to flinch
(I won't make promises) I won't make promises
(I won't make promises) You taught me that
I hate myself
For loving you like this
And I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you
If I knew it'd be this way
I'd do it all again
but I'd only change one thing
If I was give every chance change
I'd make it a point
to smile every day
So I'm cynical I guess
but whats left worth believing in
Wicked are the ones who dare to think outside the box
I guess its
righteous making money in the name of god
think about what's right and wrong.
the same gray line we all live on
Oh, Sing out all the pain.
If this was my chance to shine
but I have to think twice
cause it'd come as no surprise
if I did not know what to do
if I was caught off guard
sometimes your luck because a curse that you can't forget about
So I'm cynical I guess
but whats left worth believing in
but you try, and you try.
Wicked are the ones who dare to think outside the box
I guess its
righteous making money in the name of god
think about what's right and wrong.
the same gray line we all live on
Oh, Sing out all the pain.
The revolution will be marketed
we'll all just be pawns in the matter
If it comes between trends and truth
then I will proudly march with the latter
Wicked are the ones who dare to think outside the box
I guess its
righteous making money in the name of god
think about what's right and wrong.
the same gray line we all live on
I've been meaning to ask you
how life looks from the nose bleed seats,
and to ask how it feels to bleed.
Your life's a waste.
And the way that I'll ask it
will have revenge woven throughout,
but will be masked with the concern that a friend would bring.
You're so incomplete.
Hold a mirror to show just what you've become
and read your diary to figure out where things went wrong.
I don't think I'll ever understand,
how a cowardly cat can call himself a man.
You're all show and it's getting old.
You're all show and it's getting old.
As for the rest of us,
we'll do fine with what we have,
making the best of what is left.
And you're a naysayer
who will never know what it's like
to really have half a life.
I've been meaning to harm you
in the best way that I see fit.
I'm not sure if this did the trick,
but I think It did.
Hold a mirror to show just what you've become
and read your eulogy to figure out where things went wrong.
I hope one day you understand that
a girl on your arm won't make you a man.
Keep walking down your shallow lonely road.
It's dark and cold and it's yours and yours alone.
If you dig too deep are you scared you'll find something?
Spoonfuls of shit will surely add up.
Inside you're begging for a cure for your disease.
You wanted to know just what makes me tick,
I guess I could say that,
You and your bullshit,
Are pushing me towards an explosion.
I guess you're what drives me.
I wish I could ride you,
Drive you too fast into a sharp curve,
Break your neck like you broke my will,
The guardrail will take you home.
I guess you get caught up,
In the day-to-day,
Drama of being you.
To notice me,
And what's become of my eyes,
The vessels are an angry red,
Just like the blood from my lips, as I chew on them.
I wish I could ride you,
Drive you too fast into a sharp curve,
Break your neck like you broke my will,
The guardrail will take you home.
I keep your picture as a reminder, of what I wish I wasnt.
It's like a fun house mirror version of myself, through those fucked up eyes of yours.
I wish I could ride you,
Drive you too fast into a sharp curve,
Break your neck like you broke my will,
The guardrail,
The guardrail,
The guardrail,
So I'll leave you
To enjoy the days you spend without me
So wish in your hand
And I'll shit in mine
And I bet you mine fills up first
Words seem to roll right off your tongue
You articulate in perfect sentences and make a masterpiece of ending my life
So clever with your let downs as you fill the air with lies
So I'll sit alone and wonder what is really going on beyond your eyes
I'll circle your house for days and hope that you come to meet me
So many foot impressions form a moat
And you'll see how deep my feelings are for you
And you still won't care
So I'll leave you
To enjoy the days you spend without me
Let's hold hands
And be the best of friends
I'm so tired of the stupid games you play.
If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?
If I had a gun and shot it at your face,
would you promise not to get out of the way?
If you happen to be able to avoid
My first attack, I'll put a knife against your throat
and cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control
and you made me do the things I did at night when I got home
But I thought you'd change, but I realize that today, today
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to die painfully.
Oh, painfully...
So this brings us to the backup of my plan.
Maybe I'll just have to strangle you with my bare hands.
Then you'll have to adhere to my demands
and occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you are.
But I thought they'd change but things just stayed the same, the same
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to die...
Sometimes content leads, leads to stagnant and stagnant leads to contempt.
Contempt leads to the present.
But I thought you'd change, but things just stayed the same, the same
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to die...
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
and I'm begging you to leave here now. I'm begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. But I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time
A long December and those reasons to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving
Now the days go by so fast
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven
I wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think to come to California
I wish you would
I drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two am
Talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a littler slower
Makes you talk a little lower
About the things you could not show her
And it's been a long December
And there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last time I tried to tell myself to hold on
To these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean
I swear I can't stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer I have to stay
I want to think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn't say
I need a change
With that said I'm leaving today
I've got some concrete ideas
and they've been paving my way towards all the
downtown's and urban decay
there's so much life to these bricks
so much buildings can say
A new experienced me
we'll be coming back on rusted limbs and bloody knees
A call to arms
From all the suburban soldiers who got no one to count on
Faceless and scarred
We don’t know where were going we forgot where we came from
I thought there was blood left in this stone
Turns out that I was wrong
I hope you find the place that feels like home
And a heighten sense of strength
And a stronger sense of self
A new experienced me
we'll be coming back on rusted limbs and bloody knees
A call to arms
From all the suburban soldiers who got no one to count on
Faceless and scarred
Some days
I get crazed
I don't know why it's all relevant
I'll take deep breaths
And keep control, go on.
I've tried brave
And you've tried to save
I'm proud to keep it bottled up
I think I past my prime and lost my mind and I'm torn.
No telling what tomorrow holds.
Who let, who let this feeling die, when all I did was try?
Who let, you let this feeling die,
I can't get you out of my head, my head.
You're the flame that burns me so I know that I'm still alive.
Some say
It's all fate
but I say we control our lives
And if my destiny should outbest me then that's fine.
I make believe thrill and apathy co-exist in me fairly equally
The truth is doubts are all I've got to call mine.
No telling what tomorrow holds.
No telling what voice takes control.
Who let, who let this feeling die, when all I did was try?
Who let, you let this feeling die,
I can't get you out of my head, my head.
And you're the flame that burns me so I know that I'm still alive.
Is there anybody out there (out there)
Is anybody calling (anybody calling)
What if what i say is really wrong
Is there anybody out there (out there)
Is anybody calling (anybody calling)
What if what you say is really wrong.
I'm not in control, I think I'm out of control
Who let, who let this feeling die, when all I did was try?
Who let, you let this feeling die,
I can't get you out of my head, my head.
Come down now
Strut your stuff
I worry about you
It's ok
If you don't care
Now I'm down and I wish you were here
Wish you were here, wish you were
You need some, some downtime
I'm sorry if you're so unhappy
I'm dying without you
Be happy cause you know I care
You're a queen
Surpass the things I've seen
I'm dying without you
Call me sometime
Sorry that
You failed
To fuck up my life like you fucked up theirs
I'm trying
To tell you all of the things that I meant to that day
Meant to that day, wish I could
Cheer up my old friend
Cut, cut, cut, cutting myself down to pieces
Too hard on myself it would seem
That everyone could see myself worth beneath
I'll take a stand devise plans
Figure it out
I'll take my cuts and stitch them up
With sutures of pure cement and
And I've realized
There's no right way to go
So what if I'm a sinner
I've got black spots on my liver
And cancer grown on both my lungs
We take everything we know
About ourselves and put them in
A diary in a fire ring
Scrutiny below not me now
I think I'm ready to go
Back, back, back, back to the crooner in question
I sure hope you all like my songs
Well maybe I put too much talk in my rhymes
And melodies so stunning brainwashing minds
From day one I took pride in my
Pure and honest intentions
And I've realized
There's no right way to go
So what if I'm a sinner
I've got black spots on my liver
And cancer grown on both my lungs
We take everything we know
About ourselves and put them in
A diary in a fire ring
Scrutiny below not me now
I think I'm ready to go
And I've realized
That I don't wanna be judged no more
And I've realized
There's no right way to go
So what if I'm a sinner
I've got black spots on my liver
And cancer grown on both my lungs
We take everything we know
About ourselves and put them in
A diary in a fire ring
Scrutiny below not me now
I think I'm ready to go...
Let's say, that you're on a plane
It's going down fast
And you had time to think about
Your life and times
And where you'll end up
They say there's a place
You worry what it might be like
And scream 'cause you're scared
What if I swore to God?
Would you believe me then?
Isn't there something to be said about
Brand name recognition
Let's say, your plane didn't crash
And you should survive
Would g-g-go back to your selfish ways
And deny this was divine?
They say there's a place
You worry what it might be like
And scream 'cause you're scared
What if I swore to God?
Would you believe me then?
Isn't there something to be said about
Brand name recognition
What can I say?
We ate the apple anyway
And you'll wonder when you'll get there
When you've already been
Well let's say that this happens again
This time you were rotated back
Believe what ever's right for you
Don't doubt your worth
Stay in command
What if I swore to God?
Would you believe me then?
Isn't there something to be said about
Brand name recognition
What can I say?
We ate the apple anyway
And you'll wonder when you'll get there
When you've already been
and many days your to far from the sky
to feel the sun
the warmth you miss
i'll no longer try to replace
just don't go there ever friday night
to lose yourself
'til you've lost everything
i'm a wreck and close
to locking my door
from the rest of
the rest of this
don't need to hear you
listen up tonight
don't think i know
don't think i know
and many days your too far from the sky
to feel the sun
the warmth you miss
i'll no longer try oh to replace
just don't go there ever friday night
to lose yourself
'til you've lost everything
you're so lovely
and still so lost
so pretend that
that you forgot
how proud are you of
being everything
but genuine
genuine
and many days your too far from the sky
to feel the sun
the warmth you miss
i'll no longer try to replace
just don't go there ever friday night
to lose yourself
'til you've lost everything
and you do it so well
the way you raise your
glasses to forget how
you failed
any chance is dedicate to long
summer's empty
bottles nlt
hearts
you do it so well
the way you raise glasses 'til you lost all your chance
they way you read your ads 'til you lost all your friends
you do it so well
the way you raise glasses 'til you lost all your chance
they way you read your ads
the light bends
around us
and it keeps us from being found
as we find each other once again
right back where we started
we left our hearts
ready to fall back in again
open arms
seems so far above than what we deserve
encircled by crowds
of promises dancing 'round
as they mark and celebrate the end
of my years of scared
we left our hearts
ready to fall back in again
open arms
seems so far above than what we deserve
the light bends
around us
and it keeps us from being found
we left our hearts
ready to fall back in again
open arms
When Winter falls
Next year, I'll be holding on
To anything nailed down
As for being patient, with fate and all, it's getting old.
And my mind is slowly changing
I'm calling all my oldest friends,
Saying "sorry for this mess we're in,"
And I'm waiting, waiting
For the Sun to come and melt this snow,
wash away the pain, and give me back control, control.
An angel got his wings,
And we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine.
We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Should we still set his plate?
Should we still save his chair?
Should we still buy him gifts?
And if we don't, did we not care?
It makes you think about the life you've led,
Shit you've done, things you've said.
And it's grounding, grounding.
I've been feeling three feet tall this month,
hardly indestructible.
But the snow melts, and the rhythm still goes on.
An angel got his wings,
And we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine.
We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Friends stay side by side,
In life and death you've always stole my heart,
You'll always mean so much to me, it's hard to believe this
These nights in vans,
These nights in bars,
Don't mean a thing with empty hearts, with empty hearts.
An angel got his wings,
And we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine.
We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Friends stay side by side,
In life and death you've always stole my heart,
You've always meant so much to me, it's hard to believe
So much to me, it's hard to believe
Butter on a summer day
When she's around
I was on the tracks
When the gates came down
When suddenly I recognized
Those bloodshot rearview mirror eyes as mine
And I heard that whistle call my name
And I almost drove away
But Megan I had a feeling that you would be on that train
So I just waited there for you
Caught a ride to another town
Where the air was clean
And the sun never goes down
Everyone was standing in a line
Between the landing and the stairs
I heard somebody call my name
I almost climbed the stairs
But Megan I had a feeling that someday you'd meet me there
So I just waited there for you
Butter on a summer day
When I hear your name
It's a dream that never came true
So I sat down on the tracks
And waited for a train to take me back to you
And somebody came and took my hand
And I finally had to go
But Megan I just want you to know
That I waited as long as I could
Nighttime fades into day
And a big mistake you didnt know you made
See if you can take it back
You thought that this was what it seemed
Fate doesnt care about plans
You never knew life was a rubber band
The harder that you pull
The more it snaps back
The more it hurts
Sweetness did you believe in this
They got you good they got you
No matter what transpires
Your will can take you higher now
So dont take out frustration
On your body
That junk will make you sorry
I'm taking my last stand
And to think they almost got me too
Dont confuse bad for rebirth
Dont mess around feeling like love is a curse
But you gotta make a change
Before you lose control
I'm not saying I know what and what not to do
Were all torn up from inside out
And I've had mistakes in my bed once or twice
That I put in my closet till I finally came to
And I realized Ill always know what I have to do
Sweetness did you believe in this
They got you good they got you
No matter what transpires
Your will can take you higher now
So dont take out frustration
On your body
That junk will make you sorry
I'm taking my last stand
And to think they almost got me too
Time is upon us
Be who you want to
Be who you want to be
Keep moving forward
Dont live in the corner
Be who you want to be
Judges will judge
In the classrooms and the court
If you keep giving them their say
Ill be who I want to be
So think what you want of me
Sweetness did you believe in this
They got you good they got you
No matter what transpires
Your will can take you higher now
So dont take out frustration
On your body
That junk will make you sorry
I'm taking my last stand
And to think they almost got me
To think they almost got me
So let's close our eyes and we'll talk in the morning,
when we're able to feel
the true weight of our words and why we're both here.
Then we can say we tried and take comfort in knowing
that if we both die alone tomorrow,
it's just the way that the stars aligned.
Hope we both learned our lesson (Hope we both learned our lesson)
Hope we both learned our lesson
We'll be ok.
We both got what we wanted.
I got sex, you got fame.
Who used who now that you've got all new friends?
But they don't know your name.
Here you are, how's the big time darling?
hope I helped make your dreams come true.
And in a way I'm ashamed for not being your first or your last,
just the first cool enough to admit to.
I can hide by my reputation, while sadly you're making your own.
But a notch on your belt's not a notch worn so well,
it's expected of me and the lies that I tell.
Hope we both learned our lesson (Hope we both learned our lesson)
Hope we both learned our lesson
We'll be ok.
We both got what we wanted.
I got sex, you got fame.
Who used who now that you've got all new friends?
But they don't know your name.
They don't know your name.
We'll be ok.
We both got what we wanted.
I got sex, you got fame.
Who used who now that you've got all new friends?
But they don't know your name.
We'll be ok.
We both got what we wanted.
I got sex, tasted fame.
Who used who now that you've got all new friends?
But they don't know your name.
I hate myself,
more than I ever let on.
I'm burned out at 22.
I lived too fast and I loved too much and I'll die too young,
but I chose this cup that I drank from.
Knew what I was getting into.
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in.
I'm ashamed of myself and unspeakable sins,
that I've committed and:
I've made mistakes,
but I'll find my way.
There's no explanation for,
the things I've failed at before.
They can't hold my hand.
It just hurts to be a man,
Through the tortures of the damned.
If I only had an axe,
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world.
Maybe I can be a stranger,
in a strange place.
If I start now, maybe I can be saved.
If I only had a mask,
I'd cover these bleeding eyes.
They're bloodshot now but they'll be black by dawn.
If I wake up now,
I can be pure again.
You're pulling out your teeth
And I'm the Novocaine you pump in your cheek.
Thats why I'm still around,
You've got blood running down your chin.
But you suffered peacefully (suffered peacefully)
She was a termite
Eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul
Who needed a home
I was filling a void with you
And I can't, can't wait
Till you've see see seen
What death and disgust
Have done to me
And I spent three years wishing
For two things,
that one day you'd break
And I'd get to see
How all the choices you've made
Would drive you insane
I wish we never met
As angry as I sound
Thats just the way I cover up, the way I feel.
I've been that way for years and years
Slave to broken hearts and sex appeal
She was a termite
Eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul
Who needed a home
I was filling a void with you
And I can't, can't wait
Till you've see see seen
What death and disgust
Have done to me
And I spent three years wishing
For two things,
that one day you'd break
And I'd get to see
How all the choices you've made
Would drive you insane
I wish we never met
She was a termite
Eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul
Who needed a home
I was filling a void with you
And I can't, can't wait
Till you've see see seen
What death and disgust
Have done to me
And I spent three years wishing
For two things,
that one day you'd break
And I'd get to see
How all the choices you've made
Would drive you insane
This isn't who I am.
From confidence to self doubt in 60 seconds.
Storming stages and stereos from here to there,
trying to prove that I belong.
Trying to win approval from people that I don't know.
And I look so strong
when the weight of all the world
don't take it's toll.
And I'd choose my sides
if I believed in what was right,
but I'm all wrong.
I'm not larger than life, I'm not taller than trees.
Do I mean what I say? Is it just this disease where I never go home.
Never telling the truth how this life eats away.
Not admitting I'm fake
and I'm questioning whether this whole thing was worth it to die poor and all alone?
Just don't tell me this doesn't mean the world,
If I should fall down would you wait for me
If I was out would you be home
If I should pray, then would you pray with me
If I fell in love would I be in love alone?
This isn't half of what I thought it'd be
At what point does love become routine
I had to wait, I had to wait, I had to wait to see
That who you are is not who I hoped you'd be
Now I don't know where to go
I don't know if this beats still working
My hearts not beating anymore
And I don't know If I bleed
Test it out just to see
Cos the best that I can hope to be
Is strong enough to leave
I never lived and died by ecstacy
Funs never been my cup of tea
But now I try, but now I try, but now I try to be
The best I can for noone else but me
Now I don't know where to go
I don't know if this beats still working
My hearts not beating anymore
And I don't know If I bleed
Test it out just to see
Cos the best that I can hope to be
Is strong enough to leave
Your such a shame love
What those animals say to ya
Your such a shame love
What those animals say to ya
Your such a shame love
What those animals say to ya
What they do when they came for ya
Just think it through
You never learn what not to do
Such a shame love
What those Animals say to ya
What they do when they came for ya
Just think it through
You never learn what not to do
A shame love
Your such a shame love
A shame love
Now I don't know where to go
I don't know if this things still working
My hearts not beating anymore
And I don't know If I bleed
Test it out just to see
Cos the best that I can hope to be
Now I don't know where to go
I don't know if this things still working
My hearts not beating anymore
And I don't know If I bleed
Don't know if this things still working
The best that I can hope to be
Oh pain, am doing bad
Im getting answers to some questions that I never should have asked
And its getting old, its decomposing fact
Just when I thought it couldnt get much worse
I stab me in the back
Id rather face the gallows
Cause nothing matters
And Ill just change my name
There is no love just appetite
And its consequences keep you up at night
Well appetite is lust at best
And its up to us to figure out the rest
I thought that I was working towards the truth
Thought if I wait long enough Id put the passion to goo use
And in a flash cut to me with hated hands
In a fight without a cause I am a wounded veteran
Id rather face the gallows
Cause nothing matters
And Ill just change my name
There is no love just appetite
And its consequences keep you up at night
Well appetite is lust at best
And its up to us to figure out the rest
Its not right now to lose control the way I do
I am a slave to this
I am a masochist
This ones got whiskers its as old as ice its nothing new
I am a slave to this
I am a masochist
Id rather face the gallows
Cause nothing matters
And Ill just change my name
There is no love just appetite
And its consequences keep you up at night
Well appetite is lust at best
And its up to us to figure out the rest
And its up to us to figure out the rest
Tell me just who you think you are
to find a girl and break her heart.
Do all my friends do it the same?
It's not for love, stay away from him.
You'd be the last one I'd expect to act like this.
You'd be the last one I'd expect to act like, this.
It's time to never let this happen,
a million times again.
It's time to put these reflexes to rest, yeah.
Tell me just what you really want,
they say it's love, you're just fucked up.
Tell me just what you really say
to make them think they love you.
You'd be the last one I'd expect to act like this.
You'd be the last one I'd expect to act like, this.
It's time to never let this happen,
a million times again.
It's time to put these reflexes to rest, yeah, yeah!
I'm sorry I can't care
about your stupid lies
I'm always gonna stand alone
when I never know what to say
when I never know how to act
cause whenever I get this way
and its a shame and a stupid dream
and it made me turn away
and so much is better this way
and I know its hard hurt
when your tryin to get her
its come a drug
and I know its hard to see where we are together
its almost time
let me see you laugh out loud
cause it makes me think we had a chance
I know we never had a song
and we never cared enough to dance
it seemed like a stupid dream
to think we'd fall in love someday
give it up so much is better this way
and I know its hard to run when ur tied together
its come undone
and I know its hard to sing when we aren't together
its almost done
and I know its hard to run when ur tied together
its come undone
and I know its hard to sing
One was enough to get him this far
And two would just complicate things
He says, "you'll be sitting pretty
In a dark room in the city
Cause one doesn't leave room for you and me"
Bill was a worker in a working plant
He builds things that he can't afford
But one day he'll get his revenge it won't be pretty
Society owes him that and more
"Oh, jesus christ", he says "I think I'm doing fine, but it may be time for bed"
And I think, "Hey, I hate this game, it hasn't always been this way,
Where men are judged by their mistakes"
Tortured and alone but not by happenstance
Has heaven saved a place setting for him
Riddled with regret and sin
He's in decent shape for the shape he's in
The world won't get the best of him again
"Oh, jesus christ", he says "I think I'm doing fine, but it may be time for bed."
And I think, "Hey, I hate this game, it hasn't always been this way,
Where men are judged by their mistakes."
And he's turned his memories
Into secrets that he keeps from himself
And it's safe to tell it hasn't done him well
He's been held down and told what he can do
And that's exactly what they'll try to do to you
One was enough to get him this far
And two would just complicate things
He says, "you'll be sitting pretty
In a dark room in the city
I've spent too much time
Picking up pieces I've left behind
For months you've been mine
Still doesn't make it alright
I fell deaf to everything you said
I didn't mean to but you ask for it
I meant everything I said
We're through now cause you bring me down
Don't be the one
Waiting at my door next time I hear a knock
It won't be the same
That's just like me when everything's gone wrong
To latch onto something even less stable, less good
I needed an anchor for my sinking ship
It's just like me to attach it to my heart instead
I think this was a test
To see how long I could hold my breath
I understand, but I gotta remind myself
That even at my worst I can keep my head
Alone I stand
United we fall apart
One union under God
But not for long, thankfully
That's just like me when everything else fails
To go for the gold, the unattainable goals
Enough's not enough when you're beat to the floor
As if heartache's not heartache enough anymore
I think this was a test
To see how long I could hold my breath
I understand, but I gotta remind myself
That even at my worst I can keep my head
Alone I stand
United we fall apart
One union under God
But not for long, thankfully
When we were young we never cared
And now we're scared of jumping in
Like we've forgotten how to swim
But if we try and if we tread
then we can teach ourselves again
'Cause it's worth the chance we take
When we were young we never cared
But now we're scared of jumping in
Like we've forgotten how to swim
But I think that we should try and we should tread
'Cause if we never take another dip again
We'll never know the joy that failure brings
I understand, but I gotta remind myself
That even at my worst I can keep my head
Alone I stand
United we fall apart
One union under God
But not for long,
One union under God
The sidewalk's cracked and dirty face
Is looking up from underneath my feet,
It's staring at the hallow, broken boy,
Who's lost and wandering these city streets,
And every night I wander here alone,
A night that we won't meet.
I wonder when.. when I'll finally understand,
Why time can wash away love like,
It was made of sand,
And it's wonderful
The pain that comes with regret,
Sometimes you have to see the beauty,
In all of this loneliness.
The streetlights flicker, and they fade,
Like every good intention that I've had,
And every face that passes through my mind,
And I'll be struggling with these same old dreams,
Until the concrete turns to sand,
And I'm swept up by the waves.
There's only so many chances that you get to do,
Something that's this important,
Now I'd rather sink than swim.
Sewer grates keep spitting up their steam,
Exhaling all the broken dreams I've flushed away.
And I wonder when, when I'll bow out,
Wash me away like I was made of sand,
Your broken promise and my memory
Are taking all the kindness in my heart.
Your winter chill that brought me down,
The promise of tomorrow had brought me back to better days
And it's so hard
I held your hand
And you held mine,
Outside the coffee shop
Outside the shore right by your town
Now I cry almost every night
Thinking about those times,
Those better days
When you were mine, mine
And I'm so pleased to show you face,
Seeing your reflection in every glass of water that I drink
And you can change my life with just three words
Saying that I love you
And it's so hart
I held your hand
And you held mine,
Outside the coffee shop
Outside the shore right by your town
Now I cry almost every night
Thinking about those times,
Those better days
When you were mine, mine, mine
Please leave your attitude outside
Please leave your attitude outside
Please leave your attitude outside
I want those letters back that I gave to you
This place is draggin me down
A hamster wheel I thought I'd be done by now
now that all my allies are gone
I realize advancing could hold you back
My good intentions just keep sliding by the way side
But its high tide and they get washed away with time
till every things gone
till every things gone
I was fine alone a long island cell
But fines polite I'd rather things more profound
I've become a rat these days
And I swim like one alone again
Barely surviving the tidal wave
My good intentions just keep sliding by the way side
But its high tide and they get washed away with time
till every things gone
till every things gone
I swear damn it all to hell
damn it all to hell
I think I've finally found a way
To go to heaven without dying
So I am on my way
The harder you work
The harder you fall you wake up one day
with nothing at all
My good intentions just keep sliding by the way side
But its high tide and they get washed away with time
till every things gone
I curse to hell the magistrate who granted this unholy fate
But I know, I know I asked for this myself; I’m bound by law to hell
And it’s sick, sick, sick
Humans have their needs, living in a fairytale that’s tearing at the seams
A dank reject, the devil in a dress--exactly what you seem
Sick, Sick, Sick
It’s sick, sick, sick
You made a mess of things
My what a mess you’ve made
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you make me
In your world it’s cold outside
So button up and open wide
I hate the way you make me feel sick, sick, sick
If memory serves me correct, I gave you all and you gave me less
Your sexcapades deliver checks but can’t afford you self-respect
And it’s sick, sick, sick
Humans on their knees, living in a fairytale that’s tearing at the seams
A dank reject, the devil in a dress--exactly what you seem
Sick, Sick, Sick
It’s sick, sick, sick
You made a mess of things
My what a mess you’ve made
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you make me
In your world it’s cold outside
So button up and open wide
I hate the way you make me feel sick, sick, sick
Maybe love is looking for someone to fill up holes
We grow up building lives with holes in all our walls
The walls can fall but here you were with spare bricks to save the day
And we pray it’s not too late
Spare bricks can be dead weight
Sick, Sick, Sick
It’s sick, sick, sick
Sick, Sick, Sick
It’s sick, sick, sick
You made a mess of things
My what a mess you’ve made
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you make me
In your world it’s cold outside
So button up and open wide
I've always played the fool around here
I'm starting to worry that
I rush through life forgetting to breath
We all need some time to adapt
No one understands
No one understands
What it’s like
I had high hopes of silver and gold;
I thought this could change for the best
My mom always said I was named for a saint
but I never felt I was blessed
No one understands
No one understands
No one understands
What it's like
I got your cure right here
Is that what you want to hear?
I've played the fool too many times
I've been catching up
For all my life
And it seems
It gets harder to believe it gets harder but
Be honest
If the sun don’t shine tomorrow we’ll survive
I turn this up as loud as it goes
And it ain't doing much for the pain
It’s up to me and the heart on my sleeve
That hasn’t quite been the same
No one understands
No one understands
No one understands
What it's like
I got your cure right here
Is that what you want to hear?
I've played the fool too many times
I've been catching up for all my life and it seems
It gets harder to believe
It gets harder but
Be honest
If the sun don’t shine tomorrow we’ll survive
I'm in a field of landmines
A cruise ship to hell
O but I don’t think about that
It's so hard to find help
these days
When everyone's counting on me
But I'm burnt already
I got your cure right here
Is that what you want to hear?
I've played the fool too many times
I've been catching up for all my life and it seems
It gets harder to believe
it gets harder but be honest
If the sun don’t shine tomorrow
If the sun don’t shine tomorrow
If the sun don’t shine tomorrow
Do you know that every night I think of ways to get back at you
I sneak into your room
Put a pillow over your face
I suffocate you
Or reach into your chest and tear out your heart
To see if you'll bleed like I do
I bet you do
Tripping over the world
The night tripping on me
And isn't that funny
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke
I wish you would
Then your body could match your eyes
So cold and blue and lifeless
How did I ever fall for you
Do you know that every night I think of ways to get back at you
I sneak into your room
Put a pillow over your face
I suffocate you
Or reach into your chest and tear out your heart
To see if you bleed like I do
I bet you do
Tripping over the world
The night tripping on me
And isn't that funny
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke
I wish you would
Then your body could match your eyes
So cold and blue and lifeless
How did I ever fall for you
And I'll see if you bleed like I do
I'll see if you bleed like I do
Tripping over the world
The night tripping on me
But isn't that funny
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke
I wish you would
Then your body could match your eyes
So cold and blue and lifeless
How did I ever fall
Tripping over the world
The night tripping on me
And isn't that funny
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke
I wish you would
Then your body could match your eyes
So cold and blue and lifeless
It's getting cold.
Thought it was too soon to tell
but it was terribly old
and as the heartbeat slows to a heartless crawl.
The lights went out,
The lights went out
and darkness filled the house
on tiring night under a Long Island sky.
I thought I'd known the consequence,
but sweetness, can you believe this?
Mess we've made of it.
This mess we've made of it.
In years to come it might make sense,
but sweetness, can you believe this?
This what's become of it? What's become of it?
If you hear this and you think you're ready,
then meet me in Montauk
where we'll write out in the sand,
"Here lies the destiny of 2 hurt souls
afraid to be cured again."
That could be our epitaph.
I thought I'd known the consequence,
but sweetness, can you believe this?
Mess we've made of it.
This mess we've made of it.
In years to come it might make sense,
but sweetness, can you believe this?
This what's become of it? What's become of it?
I know...
I thought I'd know the consequence,
but sweetness, can you believe this?
Mess we've made of it.
This mess we've made of it.
In years to come it might make sense,
but sweetness, did you foresee this?
I try, try
I look for bad on the inside
But heaven knows you're heaven sent
Your skin stretches perfectly over perfect placed bones
That shame the greatest architects
This time there's nothing I can do
My heart has swelled to twice its size
I've got everything to lose
Walk, walk with me
Through a mind where everything is
To be good to be true, all chances spent
I don't believe in much now
I bring things up just to shoot them down
I guess just for the night I'll bend
This time there's nothing I can do
My heart has swelled to twice its size
I've got everything to lose
And I'm just good for a one night stand
On night two I'll find something new
I can't control this Monster I am
This time there's nothing I can do
My heart has swelled to twice its size
I've got everything to lose
And I'm just good for a one night stand
On night two I'll find something new
I can't control this Monster I am
I thought maybe we'd made a pact, but you gave into foul temptations making all the wrong moves and the wrong decisions making lies up for all the right questions maybe I was just asking too much. I don't think it's likely your just made from all the wrong stuff your beds been made. Mona lisa you've really done something. Done a number on all of my organs. Mona lisa you've really done something. Done a number on all of my Organs (Na Na Na) I must say I commend you on all of your fire, Soaring highs and drowning lows, Full speed ahead you go with all of your heart ache it's all greater 10 minutes till doomsday. aLl the while just showing your teeth, smiling your teeth, never sure I just wait and see. Your beds been made, now go die in it. Mona lisa you've really done something, done an number on all of my organs (2x) (Na Na Na) and I've been racking my brain figuring out what to say, but it may be safe to bet, the day might come where I forgive what you've done but it still hasn't happened yet
I'm s_i_c_k of my meaningless life
where c_h_a_n_c_e_s pass me by
it's r_e_a_l_i_t_y
praise o_u_r lady of terrible guilt
that's not my i_d_e_a of f_r_e_e will
it's r_e_a_l_i_t_y
mister c_o_o_l at all the shows
your a_t_t_i_t_u_d_e is old
this is r_e_a_l_i_t_y
and you might ask why nothing's ever how it seems
I think I knew more when i was 13
when did life get so real?
and now I feel like im losing my mind
i used to think all the time
now thinking hurts and feelings is worse
i liked reality better when it was a dream.
x3> na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I had a place to live in
I had a job worth quitting
I had some things I had to chase
Mistakes but we all make them
We celebrate being young
I had the chance to runaway
And I wish upon a satelite
That a wrong can't turn a right
Believe me, that we are
Our only chance in the world
If fate should fail us
Then hope will see us through
And we are, our only chance in the world
So stand for something
Cos somethings overdue
And I don't ask for much
But this could define a lifetime
A dead mans hands
We are the only friends we ever had
They called it education
I saw a means to an end
I saw my life in other ways
To live and die a king
I thought there could be worst fates
To land upon and I could go back home
When it all blew up in my face
And I wish upon a satelite
That wrong can't turn a right
Believe me, that we are
Our only chance in the world
If fate should fail us
Then hope will see us through
And we are, our only chance in the world
So stand for something
Cos somethings overdue
And I don't ask for much
But this could define a lifetime
A dead mans hands
We are the only friends we ever had
You'd need a map to see how far
I was sticking out my neck
We all have things that we all second guess
And fears of being ordinary
And I wish upon a satelite
That a wrong can't turn a right
Believe me, that we are
Our only chance in the world
If fate should fail us
Then hope will see us through
And we are, our only chance in the world
So stand for something
Cos somethings overdue
And I don't ask for much
But this could define a lifetime
At a dead mans hands
We are the only friends we ever had
At a dead mans hands
don't mean to scare you but i've
i've not been sleeping lately
and phone calls aren't doing much to help
so if it's all the same i'd
just ask to never have to
offer explanation or excuse again
we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
when we find out in the end
it's only us that we've been kidding
so find the darkest place and
search under blankets for me
smothering myself in this darkness
i am lying down tonight and
you're not lying with me
but honesty doesn't sit so well on you
some things you just can't fake
we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
when we find out in the end
it's only us that we've been kidding
just another stupid drama
that no one notices but you
and you only take an interest when
there's nothing else to do
but you won't mind
wait for all of it
i can't go wait for all of this
but you won't mind
you wait for all of it
i can't go and wait for all of this
we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they're still worth living
when we find out in the end
it's only us that we've been kidding
just another stupid drama
that no one notices but you
and you only take an interest when
It's what you want
and who you are
that has always been two very different things
So I wore my best clothes
on the last day
that I had to carry us in an uphill war
but I dropped you
under the shelter of
an old friend
you didn't mind then
so don't know
is this what we're fighting for
so why don't you tell me
how it was too little too late
as far as I can see it was the best we the best we could do
this is what I fought for
this is not
so why don't you tell me the truth
And so she she screams to her past
but I used to be someone better back then
she used to be someone better back then
so why don't you tell me
how it was too little too late
as far as I can see it was the best we the best we could do
this is what I fought for
this is not
so why don't you tell me the truth
but I used to be someone better back then
she used to be someone better back then
so why don't you tell me
how it was too little too late
as far as I can see it was the best we the best we could do
this is what I fought for
this is not
so why don't you tell me the truth
so why don't you tell me
how it was too little too late
as far as I can see it was the best we the best we could do
the best that we could do
and it's what you want
and who you are
that has always been two very different things
and it's what you want
and who you are
I can't go on...
deflate the air from both of my lungs
Fears one by one, followed me home, and became reality. I'm a failure I'm a freak, I'm a chip on your shoulder. The last thing you need.
I shudder earthquakes at the thought of a life that's meaningless and with such a promising past but you can always count on me to choke in the end
I can't go on ... Deflate the air from both of my lungs. I'll be gone... long before daylight shows it's face...
Honestly I'm taking big strides, in a race towards normalcy. Where more is more and less is weak. Where love is crap, Emotion speaks for us all.
What's really right? Who's who to say? I can survive alone again. I figured that out the hardest way. The forecast calls for fire, but flames sound nice today.
I can't go on... Deflate the air from both of my lungs. I'll be gone... long before daylight shows it's face...
It's old and worn-and it's mouth smiles no more. I'm worth my weight in potting soil. Maybe I've tried to hard to care.
I wonder
If I said the right things
Would this wound have bled so much
Words are all that we have left for us
I wonder
Why you had to be in such a rush
I'll march into my graveyard and bury you now
The last man standing
But not the last one laughing
While worms eat your body and the fog covers your grave
I'll still be trying
To get your laugh out of my head
I just need some more
Just need some more time
It's not how we should say goodbye
Wasted my time
And I thought you were stronger than ones before
When I said that I needed some time
I didn't expect you to quit
Now that I lost you
Feels like I lost myself
I found regret
Answers we'll never get
Angels we have on heard high
Sweetly singing ore the plains
And the mountains in reply
Echoing their joyous strains
Gloria in excelsis Deo
Gloria in excelsis Deo
Come to Bethlehem and see
Christ whose birth the angels sing
Come adore on bended knee
Christ the Lord the newborn King
Gloria in excelsis Deo
Gloria in excelsis Deo
See him in a manger laid
Whom the choirs of angels praise
Mary, Joseph, lend your aid
While our hearts in love we raise
Gloria in excelsis Deo
Gloria, in excelsis Deo
I've got a stage and a mic
Which I use to say things you won't like
But I spent years thinking I was alone (Thinking I was alone)
Now I know, now I know, that I'm not, that I'm not
And I'm sharing that comfort with those
Who think that hope is lost
Oh and I'm so proud of where I am
I'm learning where the stand or to tread lightly
So hold back
Steadfast you've gotta breathe
And be content, just count to ten
Like all the experts say and hear
The drugs don't seem to work
And they've got a padded room for you
To get what you just deserve.
If I could chose my own name
I'd chose something that's bold and fits
Like anger, aggression, or cunningly brash
By the skin of my teeth but with timing and class
Oh woe is me (Oh woe is me)
Oh woe were us (Oh woe were us)
But not anymore we stand up for ourselves
We're like captains at war, we'll get followed to hell
Oh and I'm so proud of where I am
I'm learning where the stand or to tread lightly
So hold back
steadfast you gotta breathe
And be content, just count to ten
Like all the experts say and hear
The drugs don't seem to work
And they've got a padded room for you
To get what you just deserve.
I and I, we're taking control of our lives
I and I, we're taking control of our lives
I and I, we're taking control of our lives
Everything's alright
I and I, we're taking control of our lives
I and I, we're taking control of our lives
I and I, we're taking control of our lives
Everything's alright
So (So) hold back
Steadfast you've gotta breathe
And be content, just count to ten
Like all the experts say and hear
The drugs don't seem to work
And they've got a padded room for you
Mr. Hughes, how are you? I know it's been a while
But I've been dying trying to capture your brilliant smile
People like us, we are always misunderstood
Though there's ups and downs the bad outshines the good
Howard you're a 10 but I'm not sure this ends well
Hold it close to your heart
What ever happened to Howard Hughes?
I guess life wasn't good to you; you gave it all you got
And still they threw you out for being you
Even if our success was as good as dead; our worst critics were in our head
Society don't accept me or you and all our friends agree
People say we're done for we're liabilities
But I brought property on the thin line between genius and insanity.
You wrote the books on brains and wealth and looks,
Ahead of both our times free thinkers only thrive in history books
Howard you're a 10 but I'm not sure this ends well
Hold it close to your heart
What ever happened to Howard Hughes?
I guess life wasn't good to you; you gave it all you got
And still they threw you out for being you
Even if our success was as good as dead; our worst critics were in our head
Society don't accept me or you and all our friends agree
Howard my dear was it films and planes that made you this way
Howard my dear they spoke and we're jokes
Howard you're a 10 but I'm not sure this ends well
Hold it close to your heart
What ever happened to Howard Hughes?
I guess life wasn't good to you; you gave it all you got
And still they threw you out for being you
Even if our success was as good as dead; our worst critics were in our head
the sharper the edge the cleaner the wound,
so i'll be keeping it dull tonight for i deserve to hurt.
disfigure the outside to show how ruined i am.
there's no pain and no pleasure when you're too numb to feel.
there's a pedestal across the room and if i try to climb again,
this time the fall is fatal.
i don't deserve such and easy exit,
so maybe my spine can snap on impact and i'll have to crawl away.
i'm ready to take that big step, start tearing off the layers i put up;
or is it too late to be anything but what i am?
identify the problem,
now let's see if we can fix anything.
just close the door and let me do what i believe,
cause it's better for us if you just let me leave.
i'm ready to take that big step,
start tearing off the layers i put up;
or is it too late to be anything but what i am?
identify the problem, now let's see if we can fix anything.
It seems that you're keeping me down
and it just seems pointless
To work this thing out and
What's holding me back?
A lifelong friendship's not worth it
I'll hide this one deep underground
Convenience can comfort you now
But the words that you said
You can never take back and
I'm warning you now
When you realize you made a mistake
I'll be sure to kick you while you're down
I gave you this gift (I gave you this gift)
Now I'm here alone and I'm paying for it
Our light's almost out (Our light's almost out)
But I'll smile again the day that you figure out
Breathe kids, the mold is getting old
It'll be gone any day
The hipster empire of tomorrow
Will fall to the common kids of today
With tied wrists we're under their control
With fists clenched, we're taking on the world
I write down words with cathartic intentions
But they spawn revolutions of minds
Theyre asking for my, my head on a plate
Theyre asking for my, my head on a plate
I'm really, really not
That conceited I swear I'm not
I'm just trying to bring
Music back to music
I define up and coming
They already came up and went
I'm loose lipped now shaking back and forth
Problems fixed, I'm pouring out my soul
I find the right words to express myself
Instead of fitting round pegs in round holes
What a lovely day for a symphony
Full of honesty and integrity
So take this for what its worth
Originality's not a curse
Theyre asking for my, my head on a plate
Theyre asking for my, my head on a plate
I'm really, really not
That conceited I swear I'm not
I'm just trying to bring
Music back to music
I define up and coming
They already came up and went
Theyre asking for my, my head on a plate
Theyre asking for my, my head on a plate
I'm really, really not
That conceited I swear I'm not
I'm just trying to bring
Music back to music
I define up and coming
Portrait of a real American boy
He keeps his insecurities at bay
The King of Belle Vernon P.A.
He's got a car his friends and him take up to the lake
To narrowly escape this town's like glue they say
Cause once you're here you stay
The portrait of a real American boy
And it don't come easy
He's just working as hard as he can
But you'll never know if you don't let go
Of you to find your own identity, identity
The boy became a real American man
The product of a past that makes him mad
And now he's turned into his dad
He still works at the gas station doing tune-ups
"Man I think I had a shot," he'd say
"if only I could only catch a break"
The portrait of a real American boy
And it don't come easy
He's just working as hard as he can
But you'll never know if you don't let go
Of you to find your own identity
And it don't come easy
He's just working as hard as he can
But you'll never know if you don't let go
Of you to find your own identity, identity
What's all this for?
What are we ever working towards?
The jobs and lovers always came and went
The story of his life is etched into a vinyl
And on both sides he hears his famous friends
And now it all makes sense yeah, yeah, yeah
And it don't come easy
He's just working as hard as he can
But you'll never know if you don't let go
Of you to find your own identity
It don't come easy
He's just working as hard as he can
But you'll never know if you don't let go
Drink up beautiful.
I spiked your cup with angst and a heart attack,
'cause I've got so much trapped
It's all because of you.
So I figured you might like some back.
And when I see her
I'll tell her what's been on my mind
all these sleepless nights.
She'll recite her excuses
Put my tail between these legs of mine
like I do all the time.
I can't live my life
knowing you'll be in his arms each time I blink my eyes.
Know what goes on behind my back every night,
afraid I'll never leave,
afraid I'll never know what's good for me.
And when I see her
I'll tell her what's been on my mind
all these sleepless nights.
She'll recite her excuses
Put my tail between these legs of mine
like I do all the time.
And now you say that,
you say you love me.
Well I may have your heart,
he has your body.
And now you swear that you're being honest,
but you're not honest,
and you never could be.
And when I see her
I'll tell her what's been on my mind
all these sleepless nights.
She'll recite her excuses
Put my tail between these legs of mine
I'm trying to create something that's not there.
A spark I saw. A bomb is really just a means to an end.
I was just so happy to be out of my shell again,
don't think that I really cared for who or what.
So for now I'll just have to keep it shut.
If you're not ready, you're not ready.
Please stop acting like you are.
How could I know
that everything you say are lies about devotion and desire?
I know the spark inside your eyes
was just the match I used to set myself on fire.
My mouth's shooting blanks.
This situation's unbearable,
I've gotten vulnerable.
Now anyone is free to waltz right in.
My temple's been invaded
and there's nobody guarding it.
All over this lonely life,
but what's so wrong with being all alone?
Alone's the only way I've ever known.
If you're not ready, you're not ready.
Please stop acting like you are.
How could I know
that everything you say are lies about devotion and desire?
I know the spark inside your eyes
was just the match I used to set myself on fire.
I'm pleading cause this kills and it's still bleeding.
My darling I'm taking my life back to start healing.
How could I know
that everything you say are lies about devotion and desire?
I know the spark inside your eyes
You could never really win
not to say you're born to lose
you were born to take 10th place, out of 20 in the field
Mistakes flow through your veins in a mediocre way
Your life's a living hell
You've got gremlins in your blood cells
and monsters in your bed
They're haunting you again
oh it must be this place at least that's what you say, say, say
You don't love you anymore
Cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know what you're running from
Soon you won't feel this anymore
cast your demons aside
Keep them close enough to know that you're moving on
The fire used to burn
in your heart and in your eyes
You used to dream you used to care you used to love you used to fight
for anything at all
You cover up your bedroom wall with who you want to be
Now you're afraid to be yourself so you search the mall for something else
You read magazines and watch MTV
You practiced it and everything
oh your dressed to impress but you look like a drag queen
You don't love you anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know what you're running from
Soon you won't feel this anymore
cast your demons aside
Keep them close enough to know that you're moving on
So keep your head up high
Stretch inches into miles
because Brooklyn wasn't built in just a day
Focus on important things
Be your own gun like every ghost that held you down was gone
Keep them close enough to know that you're moving on
You don't love you anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know what you're running from
Soon you won't feel this anymore
cast your demons aside
Hey mom, daddy left me here alone
Someone save me, someone save me
Hey god, I'm out here on my own
So now will you save me now
I think its funny you've been quiet for so long
When you're quiet no one proves you wrong
And dear your holiness
Your army's safe and sound
Down here dying for you
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
Maybe you can trick a lot of them
Maybe if you fool the best of them
The rest will come around
We're all scared
So they dressed you up in all these
Different names
I've gotta find peace with myself
Before I give you all
Before I give you anything at all
I think its funny you've been quiet for so long
When you're quiet no one proves you wrong
And dear your holiness
Your army's safe and sound
They're down here dying for you
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
Maybe you can trick a lot of them
Maybe if you fool the best of them
The rest will come around (around)
Been thinking that there's something more
And that you'd come down and you tell me yourself
Now I realize its just a waste of time
Another penny thrown down the well
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
(Dear your holiness, army's safe and sound)
And I don't know how they found me, found me here
(Dear your holiness, army's safe and sound)
Maybe you can trick a lot of them
Maybe if you fool the best of them
I'm never waking up again
so I'll never have to find out what you did.
Each day it's harder to pretend.
That your eyes aren't lying as much as your mouth did.
I'd grab your head by your hair and I'd hack it off.
And put it on display at the front of the yard
on a stick that's decorated with a little pink bow
and a sign that says "Her friends and family should have taught her more about love."
Dear Tragedy, I never had anybody.
But being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed
with a breath taker, a smile faker.
But these years alone have eaten me alive.
Recounting pages in a book.
That I'd torn out ashamed that one day you'd look.
Afraid that once you did you'd really know how it felt
to be a sucker on a string that you dragged around wherever you'd go.
I'm running around, around and it hurts.
Tempted to tape up the pages I'd ripped.
And although I recognize that we're attached at the lips,
you're the one in charge and that the captain's gotta sink with the ship.
I never had anybody.
But being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed
with a breath taker, a smile faker.
These years alone have eaten me alive.
Dear Tragedy, I never had anybody.
But being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed
with a breath taker, a smile faker.
years alone have eaten me alive.
Breath taker, smile faker,
How could I have let you in my life?
You're a breath taker, a smile faker.
These years alone have eaten me alive.
I never had anybody.
But being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed
with a breath taker, a smile faker.
(Dear Tragedy, Dear Tragedy)
These years alone have eaten me alive.
Took some time to think my whole life through
Cause nine to five's not cutting it and I've got more important things to do
Then sit around like apples slowly rotting to their cores
And I won't take it cause I know that I'm here for so much more
Remind me of all I am and all I have to give
Deny me the right to lead a life that's meaningless
My words are true
I'll see the world and have more fun than you
My stories told
Will be ones of adventure with girls involved
Stories untold
The streets outside of New York are paved in gold
The days of my life aren't so stupid anymore
I found myself within your room again,
I wonder where you are
Buts it’s my fault, I shouldn’t have let you into my heart so quick
Now you’re gone, now you’re gone
Wonder where to go from here
And As I play my guitar I wonder if you’re listening
And I’m left with only memories of you
And I’m losing ground, ‘cause what could I have done
Now I sit back to count the score
It’s you who failed
I did all that I, I could do
Now you’ll be the one who’ll be missing me when I’m gone
I hope you cry every time you hear my song
Now you listen close to every word your hear me say
It wasn’t very hard to bring me down
Now you’ll be the one who’ll be crying all day long
Do you know that every night I think of ways to get back at you?
I'd sneak into your room, put a pillow over your face, suffocate you.
Rip into your chest and tear out your heart.
To see if you bleed, like I do.
I bet you do.
Tripping over my words and now you're tripping on me. Isn't that funny?
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke?
I wish you would, and your face could match your eyes. Cold and blue and lifeless.
How did I ever fall for you?
Do you know that every night I think of ways that I can spite you?
Call me when you're dead or you can finally live with yourself.
Consider this a favor...consider this.
Tripping over my words and now you're tripping on me. Isn't that funny?
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke?
I wish you would, so your face could match your eyes. Cold and blue and lifeless.
How did I ever fall for you?
To see if you bleed like I do.
Tripping over my words and now you're tripping on me.
Isn't that funny?
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke?
I wish you would, so your face could match your eyes, cold and blue and lifeless.
How did I ever fall for you?
Tripping over my words and now you're tripping on me. Isn't that funny?
Couldn't you just laugh until you choke?
I wish you would, so your face could match your eyes. Cold and blue and lifeless.
Last call, lights on
Pull your faces off the bar
Go to church cause you need a good cleansing
Of body mind and soul
I never thought it possible
I think fell in love with someone worse than me
And I love you to death (love you to death)
I don't think I like you anymore
The healing power of alcohol
Only works on scrapes and nicks
And not on girls in seedy bars
Who drown themselves in it
They say that scent is the strongest sense
Its tied to memories (tied to memories)
The stench of this place is almost as bad
As the memory tied to it
Tried to forget that sickening stench
With everything I got (everything I got)
You can't trust a heart
That was cold from the start
Waste your time on it
The healing power of alcohol
Only works on scrapes and nicks
And not on girls in seedy bars
Who drown themselves in it
You could play all day
And tell your friends that everything's alright
The truth is that your heart collapsed two years ago tonight
Should thank your lucky stars
For all the times you've been ashamed
You'll learn more from the harder times
Then times that you've been vain
The lesson you learned is priceless if you can take a spin
You threw away your friends as if drinks were all the friends you need
The healing power of alcohol
Only works on scrapes and nicks
And not on girls in seedy bars
Who drown themselves in it
You could play all day
And tell your friends that everything's alright
The truth is that your heart collapsed two years ago tonight
This must be the place.
I can tell by your glare.
I wouldn't touch you on a dare.
Seven months to June and even then, so what?
My mouth is open, my book is shut.
My air guitar is out of tune.
My stupid hair is so '82 to you.
At least I don't fit in.
Corner me in Chemistry.
It's all just simple math to me.
Call me your names.
Make them stick.
I'll laugh until I am sick.
Glad that that's all through.
Got better friends to do.
Just can't remember where I left them.
I'll see you all in class.
Not if I ditch first.
Expect the best, accept the worst.
Walk until your blush subsides.
Drink beneath the 405 in the ivy and think about that girl.
Two grades below.
She pierced her nose way before it was cool.
Some older guy with a motorbike picks her up after school.
This school's a living hell.
I work and don't get paid.
I smoke a lot but can't get laid.
Sit and stare, it's all we do.
All my friends are broken, too.
Don't confuse neediness for love
Because obsession never lasts and you're insane by a landslide
Never cared for you much until death do us part
You'll always be distressed
Carry on, with the guise of a sheep in a storm
You're a wolf and you're losing the ground that you're on
But hey hey, I've got things to say
I've lost control of life
I don't know how many times I've tried
To undo the knot you've tied
My face is red, and people change
I've changed for good this time
And I've followed you around
I've seen you all over town
I've got a laundry list telling me why
It follows to prove I was right
Carry on, with the guise of a sheep in a storm
You're a wolf and you're losing the ground that you're on
But hey hey, I've got things to say
I've lost control of life
I don't know how many times I've tried
To undo the knot you've tied
My face is red, and people change
I've changed for good this time
I just can't handle this, I'm just so scared of it
A challenge fit for a man when I'm just a kid
I'm all torn at the seams, just like you said I'd be
If this is love, then I don't want a part of it
I just can't handle this, I'm just so scared of it
A challenge fit for a man when I'm just a kid
I'm all torn at the seams, just like you said I'd be
If this is love, then I don't want a part of it
But hey hey, I've got things to say
I've lost control of life
I don't know how many times I've tried
To undo the knot you've tied
My face is red, and people change
I've changed for good this time
Carry on (carry on)
Carry on, carry on, carry on
Hey hey, carry on (carry on)
He can't make sense of this
He's just too normal
This place is too scary
He's so scared that he'll miss
It keeps him in hiding
And restless and wanting
What if for one minute
He's given a chance
And does something brilliant
But he'd rather not know
Cause walls protect him
His bedroom's a prison
Now is your chance boy just ignore
The dreadful things they say
Go on, give up, you'll never win,
No crying now, they're watching him
His blood will boil, the kids will sing
Learn to drown before you learn to swim.
If he took his time to prepare,
Stepped out of his shell
Blows an addiction
Such a comforting place,
A common mistake,
A dry wishing well.
Now is your chance boy just ignore
The dreadful things they say
Go on, give up, you'll never win,
No crying now, they're watching him
His blood will boil, the kids will sing
Learn to drown before you learn to swim.
So go on, give up, you'll never win
Oh what a mistake
He is charcoal within
He could never direct by them
He stands on the stage
With a grin
But he drops on his knees
And is waiting for anything he can believe in
He's lost, he just wants to be ordinary
Now is your chance boy just ignore
The dreadful things they say
Go on, give up, you'll never win
No crying now, they're watching him
His blood will boil, the kids will sing.
Learn to drown before you learn to swim.
Go on, give up, you'll never win
No crying now, they're watching him
His blood will boil, the kids will sing.
Learn to drown before you learn to swim.
Go on, give up, you'll never win
No crying now, they're watching him
His blood will boil, the kids will sing.
Learn to drown before you learn to swim.
Go on, give up, you'll never win
No crying now, they're watching him
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
so I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility.
I spent some time in a bad place at 18,
wishing I could see something through clear eyes.
Do you ever wake up to realize
that your life is meaningless?
Does it give you strength or lead you to
your grave at a young age?
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
so I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility.
It seems that when I ran away from my past
all my dignity, my faith, my pride got left back.
And now I think it's time that I realize
self pity's meaningless.
Though I'm 10 feet deep,
I'll claw my way back out from in my grave.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
So I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility.
And say a hard life did this to me.
Now I realize, I'd give anything I have
to walk a day in my old shoes.
Wondering what my first smoke would be like,
my first fuck, my next fuck up.
Or the next band that would change my life
and it changed my life
and it changed my life.
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor.
My head against the wall.
But I did this to myself.
Assume it's just not worth getting back up,
So I'll blame it on bad luck.
And I'll shake responsibility.
When I used to be a little kid I used to go
Every saturday afternoon to the picture show
I looked up at the screen my life was so serene
I lived through every dream with my movie queen
Betty Grable
Three-Hundred howling kids would always pack the house
But they just came for donald duck and mickey mouse
But there would be a world of fantasy right then the melody
she said 'dance for me'
Betty Grable
And just the other night I saw her on some late late show
And it occurred to me that I'm someone that
She'll never know
So I wrote this little song
For the lady that I've loved so long
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You had me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
See it started at the park, used to chill after dark
Oh, when you took my heart, that's when we fell apart
Cuz we both thought, that love could last forever (Last forever)
They say we're too young, to get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care, we made it very clear
And they also said, that we couldn't last together (Last together)
See it's very define, you're one of a kind
But you're much on my mind, you often get decline
Oh lord my baby is driving me crazy
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work You had me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over
It was back in 99, watching movies all the time
Oh when I went away for doing my first crime
And I never thought, that we was gonna see each other
(See each other) And then I came out, mommy move me down south
Oh I'm with my girl who I thought was my world
It came out to me, that she wasn't the girl for me
See it's very define, you're one of a kind
But you're much on my mind, you often get decline
Oh lord my baby is driving me crazy
Now we are fussing and now we are fighting
Please tell me why, I'm feeling slighted
And I don't know, how to make it better (Make it better)
You're dating other guys, you're telling me lies
Oh I can't believe what I'm seeing with my eyes
I'm losing my mind and I don't think it's clever
(Think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work You had me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over Damn all these beautiful girls
I've been brushed to the side
I've been taken for rides
He said I'm gunna do fine
But I never knew why
I thought I could still make it
How do we say it
I just wanted it in the worst way
My life is such a wreck
I finally realize
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I left behind my moral ties, they're gone before you know
I got battle scars, battle scars
All my friends can see right through
This confidence that I pretend is real
I'm happier this way I think
But I cant remember how I really feel
My life is such a wreck
I finally realize
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I left behind my moral ties, they're gone before you know
I got battle scars, battle scars
Please doctor come cure me I lost my legs
I walked for ten long years and I tripped along the way
I don't know if I can take ten more, I'm getting comfortable on the floor
And I can sleep for days and dream about life with a general distaste
Cause I've got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I got battle scars, battle scars, battle scars
I left behind my moral ties, they're gone before you know
Ask for hope and dignity, I lost them long ago
Baby Britain feels the best
Floating over a sea of vodka
Separated from the rest
Fights problems with bigger problems
Sees the ocean fall and rise
Counts the waves that somehow didn't hit her
Water pouring from her eyes
Alcoholic and very bitter
For someone half as smart
You'd be a work of art
You put yourself apart
And I can't help until you start
We knocked another couple back
The dead soldiers lined up on the table
Still prepared for an attack
They didn't know they'd been disabled
Felt a wave, a rush of blood
You won't be happy 'til the bottle's broken
And you're out swimming in the flood
You kept back you kept unspoken
For someone half as smart
You'd be a work of art
You put yourself apart
And I can't help until you start
You got a look in your eye
When you're saying goodbye
Like you wanna say hi
The light was on but it was dim
Revolver's been turned over
And now it's ready once again
The radio was playing "crimson and clover"
London bridge is safe and sound
No matter what you keep repeating
Nothing's gonna drag me down
To a death that's not worth cheating
For someone half as smart
You'd be a work of art
You put yourself apart
I can't help until you start
For someone half as smart you'd be a work of art
You, you never call
You never write me or nothing
I set myself up to fall
I was stupid, then, to try
I'm living in a lie
I'm in a fantasy world
But the hero won't win this time
Cause my pipe dream gets flushed away
By all means I'm getting mad
That don't mean I don't feel sorry for you
How sad you're gonna be
I wish I could stick around
To see your face when you realize
You've permanently changed
And it's all thanks to me
I was wrong for coming here
You'll wake alone and run around your lonely home
Look for my face, but I'm already gone
You, you never call
You never write me or nothing
I set myself up to fall
I was stupid, then, to try
There was something in the way
Something in the way
Something in the way that you shut the door
I couldn't get enough when you blow me off
I just keep dragging myself back for more
By all means I'm getting mad
That don't mean I don't feel sorry for you
How sad you're gonna be
I wish I could stick around
To see your face when you realize
You've permanently changed
And it's all thanks to me
I was wrong for coming here
You'll wake alone and run around your lonely home
Look for my face, but I'm already gone
One day you're going to see
The life sentence you gave to me
But I swear one day we will share this cell
I know it's cold but I will keep us warm
With all the hate I radiate
We'll be walking hand in hand in hell
How sad you're gonna be
I wish I could stick around
To see your face when you realize
You've permanently changed
And it's all thanks to me
I was wrong for coming here
You wake alone and run around your lonely home
"Be okay"
Doesn't mean much to say it
Now I'm alright
Now I'm giving you yours and I take back what's mine
And I've come to the end of the road again
Still not too sure about what I'm supposed to do
And I give you my life again
Thought that it'd make any difference to you
And I wanted (wanted) to say
I am trying to let you know how much I care
And I am trying to let you know don't count on me
And I am trying to let you know how much I care
Please send my letters back
Don't send them here
Please send them to all you know who care
There's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you,
But I hate myself instead.
There's a pair of dead eyes in the mirror looking back at me.
I guess its wrong to live life so lifelessly.
Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees.
I guess thats what I should get for crawling back at your feet.
And now I'm feeling so down, that there's no God above.
No mercy for a soul thats just way too fucked up.
There's a pain in my chest growing stronger with every heartbeat.
Now there's nothing left of me,
but empty bottles of pills and Bacardi.
Yes, I guess its wrong to live right.
Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees.
I guess thats what I should get for crawling back at your feet.
And now I'm feeling so down, that there's no God above.
No mercy for a soul thats just way too fucked up.
Begin my downfall
Cause I met another person
And this time she says that she likes me
And I like her eyes
So in advance for when I fail I wanna say I'm sorry
Pictures
Without pictures of you
My wallet has never looked so empty before
I want to rub between your thighs
And blow kisses right between your eyes
And take you places that you've never been to
You're way too good for me
Cause I'm cursed with years of failure
And I know I'm bound to bring you down
I guess it's plain to see
I'm cursed with shredded genes
And shoes too big for my feet
You'll forget the boy you left behind
And forget you ever made him cry
Empty fields move me so much more then rooms filled up with friends.
The way the trees look dead
reminds me that there's more to life then living.
Maybe giving up's not bad, but part of letting go of you.
If I surrender to this feeling maybe all the aches and pains will go and I can close my eyes,
never again to have them open till I bleed out all I've been.
I don't want to be alone no more, no more
Take this razor, sign your name across my wrists
so everyone will know who left me like this
Empty fields move me so much more then rooms filled up with friends.
The way the trees look dead
reminds that there's more to life then living.
Maybe giving up's not bad, but part of letting go of you.
So take this razor, sign your name across my wrists
so everyone will know who left me like this.
Sew me up, my scars run deep
A reminder not to forget the times that we've had.
I'll never waste another second. I have wasted so much time
and I have wasted, wasted so much time
so much time
Take this razor, sign your name across my wrists
so everyone will know who left me like this.
Sew me up, my scars run deep
Nothing feels right,
But my fake smiles paint pictures like everything's fine.
Sheep like what they're told,
So they've got spindles spinning bad songs into gold.
And who decides what's wrong or right to like?
When the puzzle pieces twist,
And seem like they won't fit their match,
I'll be waiting, I'll be waiting.
All the "best" songs,
What's so "best" about 'em?
I thought I was part of something more,
But more money, less substance more demand.
I've heard great songs that no one understands.
You can't lay bricks on wet cement or build castles out of sand.
But who decides?
But when the puzzle pieces twist,
And seem like they won't fit their match,
Then I will try and try again,
And hope that someone understands.
I'll be waiting, I'll be waiting.
And they can't say they love you,
But it still won't change a thing,
'cause the tides may turn tomorrow
And I won't be there to look.
I can say -
I've got to say -
Dollar by dollar, your soul gets smaller,
Trending what we fought to make ours.
They don't care about,
They don't care.
It's a good thing bad trends fade away.
It's so much cooler in the shade.
They don't care about,
They don't care.
We give in nightly to our addiction.
A self-afflicted public crucifixion.
They don't care about,
They don't care.
Dollar by dollar, your soul gets smaller,
Trending what we fought to make ours.
They don't care about,
They don't care about us.
They don't care,
