I could be daydreaming but for a moment
And somehow they're creeping back in
I could be sleeping awakened the torrent
Somehow I get caught in their grips again
And here I am in my shame spiral
I'm sucked in to it again
And I reach out for your (something something) opinion
You bring the light back in
Don't leave me here with all these critical voices
Cause they do their best to bring me down
When I'm alone with all these negative voices
Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?
I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated
When will you stop leaving baby?
When will I stop deserting baby?
When will I start staying with myself?
Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
My unborn forgive me
I only wish I had the strength to bring
You into this world
Caminando por el rancho
Me encontre un chico guapo
me miro muy feo
porque no tenia zapatos
por eso...
Quiero ponerme mis sandalias!!
eh, eh, eh!
Y salir a buscarte!
eh, eh, eh!
Quiero ponerme mis sandalias!!
eh, eh, eh!
THEY POINT AS THEY SMILE
GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR
ASKING TO HOLD ME FOR AWHILE
THE HARDER THEY SQUEEZE
(THEY WILL DO AS THEY PLEASE)
I CAN HEAR ALL THE WISPERS
SAYING SHELL DO FINE AGAINST THE
TORTURE AND DISASTERS
HER BODY CAN HANDLE THE BLISTERS
I CAN FEEL THEIR SMILING FACES
GLARING THEIR BLOOD TEARING EYES THROUGH THE WALLS
OLD FACES PEERING BEYOND THE OTHERS
JUST TO MOCK AT MY FALL
LAUGHING LOUDER TO MAKE MY EARS BLEED
IM NOTHING
YOU FEEL THE SOARS POUNDING UNDER THE SLEEVES
LOSING THE STRENGTH TO SWALLOW THE PAIN AND
SUCCEED
IVE COME TO BELIEVE YOUVE TAKEN MY TORTURE AS A COMICAL
JOKE
ALWAYS BEEN THE FIRST TO TAKE A FINGER AND POKE
TIME IS SHORT FOR YOU AND SHORTER FOR ME
IM SOMETHING
AS LONG AS YOU HATE ME IM ALWAYS ON YOUR MIND
DIGGING AT EVERY CORNER WITH PRIDE
We have slaughtered
In the garden of beauty
Digging graves instead of planting
Mercy for the crucified
A bitter justice
Begging eternity for love
We're nothing
We're everything
I am nothing
Yet I am everybody
We're nothing
And yet we are
Wisdom lights up life's road
I run I run far from
You to the apple tree in my yard
With my dress all bundled up in my hands
Dirt on my feet I am dreaming again
I run I run I run far from
You to the lilac tree in my yard
no more swing set for the girl who is all grown up
no more tea parties parades or mothers in love
I hold my breath past the cemetery
My brother wins he can hold it much longer then me
Gravel roads make car keys rattle on steering wheels
Children and horses old barns and old automobiles
I run I run I run far from
You to the watered streets of Oregon
With a coffee cup half full in my hands
And I’m praying my savior would
Just place a gun in my hands
I run I walk I lie far from
Freaks and lying cheats on the tip of my tongue
The moon hides in the sky behind rows of tree tops
And I’m wishing I was somewhere up there
With the mermaids and stars
I run I run far from
Reality to escape who I’ve become
Insanity is close at my back
And I’m getting rather numb from the snakes
There are so many parts that I have hidden and denied and lost
There are so many ways that I have cut off my nose to spite my face
There are so many colors that I still try to hide while I paint
And there are so many tunes that I secretly sing as I wait
You come along and invite these parts out of hiding
This invitation is the one that I've stopped fighting...
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
There were so many times, I thought I'd die not being truly known
There've been so many moments: forever lonely in my vocation
You come along and celebrate each feeling
And there you are all honor and inquiring...
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Oh this intimacy
There was a day where the trust that was being asked of me
Required too much you see
To accept your generosity
And to know myself enough to let you help me
Thank you for seeing me
I feel so less lonely
Thank you for getting me
I'm healed by your empathy
Dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and
I respect that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
And you want to come visit me in california I would be open to spending time with you
And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song
Dear eric I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me
And think solely about themselves and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's your face
Comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
Dear terry I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available
And supportive and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
And pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch
And cry in front of you for the first time you were the best platform from which to jump
Beyond myself what was wrong with me
Dear marc you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the women
And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away
With kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around
You though and that stopped us from going any further than we did and it's kinda too bad
Because we could've had much more fun
Dear terrance you were an adventure besides being a few decades older than I was
You used to write the most poetic loveletters and I still have them you were in
And out of several marriages and you liked them young and naive so you could have
The power and the dramas to feel fear I wonder what your wife thought of all of this
Dear christian we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
And I understand that as I do you the long distance thing was the hardest and we did
As well as we could we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives I will always
Have your back and be curious about you about your career about your whereabouts
Dear taylor I missed you a lot there was a period of time when I was too mad to even bring up
Your name and it killed me to hear you discount the time we spent together I knew all along
That we had different tastes in moderations and we couldn't hang out forever and while it lasted
It was hilarious
You and me we're cut from the same cloth
It seems to some we famously get along
But you and me are strangers to each other
Cuz you and me:competitive to the bone
Such tragedy to trample on each other with how much we've endured
With the state this land is in
You and me feel joined by only gender
We are not all for one and one for all
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
You and me estranged from the mother
You and me have felt impotent in our skin
You and me have taken it out on each other
You and me disloyal to the feminine
Such a pity to disavow each other with how far we've come
With how strong we've been
You and me are on this pendulum together
You and me with scarcity still fueling
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
We may not have priorities same
We may not even like each other
We may not be hugely anti-men
But such a cost to dishonor a sister
You and me have made it harder for the other
We forget how hard separatism has been
You and me we can help change their minds together
You and me in alignment until the end
Sister blister we fight to please the brothers
We think their acceptance is how we win
They're happy we're climbing over each other
To beg the club of boys to let us in
You have to swear
You've got love to love me
Aah aah
That will last forever
Aah aah
We must have a story
Aah aah
With a happy ending
Aah, so don't ever go away
And never put aside
The things I'm gonna say
Cause these are rules for us
Use your eyes
Only to look at me
Use your mouth
Only to kiss my lips
We are branches of the same old tree
You can laugh
Only if you laugh with me
You can cry
Only if you cry for me
Don't forget that you're condemned to me
Oh, can't you see
You always were
You'll always be
You used to say
I should see a doctor
Aah aah
Who would keep me busy
Aah aah
Cause a jealous woman
Never makes it easy
Aah aah,
And you know I'll do for us
Whatever seems right
But it may take awhile
Before I change the rules
Use your eyes
Only to look at me
Use your mouth
Only to kiss my lips
We are branches of the same old tree
You can laugh
Only if you laugh with me
You can cry
Only if you cry for me
Don't forget that you're condemned to me
Oh, can't you see
You always were
You always were
Aah, aah, aah...
So,
Use your eyes
Only to look at me
Use your mouth
Only to kiss my lips
We are branches of the same old tree
You can laugh
Only if you laugh with me
You can cry
Only if you cry for me
Don't forget that you're condemned to me
Oh, can't you see
You always were
You'll always be
Aah, aah...
I must be two lips
I must be your sleep
I must be blinded
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
I must be spoiled
I must be behind
I must be asleep
I must be fearful
Keep it a question
Love ain't a secret
Keep it a question
Keep it a question
I must be two lips
I must be your sleep
I must plan to forget
I must be suffering
Keep it a question
Letting nothing on
Let's keep it a question
Keep it a question
Love ain't a secret
Let it stop within
I once had a girl
Or should I say she once had me
She showed me her room
Isn't it good Norwegian wood?
She asked me to stay
And she told me to sit anywhere
So I looked around
And I noticed there wasn't a chair
I sat on the rug biding my time
Drinking her wine
We talked until two and then she said
"It's time for bed"
She told me she worked
In the morning and started to laugh
I told her I didn't
And crawled off to sleep in the bath
And when I awoke I was alone
This bird had flown
So I lit a fire
Can you relate to what it saysThe lyrics are straight from the heartThe soul is expressed in the lyricsThe virtues and vices are released
Chorus:Keep The Radio On,This song means so much to meKeep the Radio On,The words live right through meThe lyrics are comfortingLike I expressed them my selfKeep The Radio on, the song speaks for itself.
Why Can't You RelateTo my way of thinkingWhy don't you understandAll the things I am feelingI am not a stranger to opinionsIn fact i have my ownI am no stranger to delusions
Although you live through mine
Repeat Chorus
Keep The Radio OnKeep The Radio OnThe words have their meaningKeep The Radio OnCan't you feel what they are sayingKeep The Radio On
(Spoken words taken from an old recording: "The women of the family seem to feel that they owe it to the men of the family to look relaxed, rested, and attractive at dinnertime.")
For you they live in a quiet monastery
For you they wear whatever you want them to as long as it is short
They count to ten when you tell them how to drive
And when they're afraid they let you speak for them
All hail the king of intimidation
Obeyer of Christian behavior
For you we'll wax; we skin, chicken our legs
For you we chew our nails if we had any but fake ones to do it
We contradict him temporarily
And it was somethin' about how you talk down to me
All hail the king of intimidation
Obeyer of Christian behavior
The role of compromises for the family you now want some
There's only so much we can do to make you rest assured
I am single
I am weary
You're just jealous
You're just confused
You're just hungry
You're in sin now
You're not happy
You like kidding
All hail the king of intimidation
Obeyer of Christian behavior
He knows not of what he has wrongly done
So forgive his ignorant behavior
You are tortured
You are captured
You are busted
We were silent
You were tested
You did better
You are lonely
Was it worth it?
Her green plastic watering can
For her fake chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself
It wears her out
It wears her out
It wears her out
It wears her out
She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins
And it wears him out
And it wears him out
And it wears him out
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
And it wears me out
It wears me out
And it wears me out
If I could be who you wanted
Testosterone in large amounts
Your little sister just kick out of
God you can't shave your head
Come to the show
The boys rock harder
Your mother lent you her slip
She lent you her bright red lipstick
And your shoes are hurting your back
But boy don't you look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
you look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
This is but an observation
You put a bullet in your foot
You make it hard for us bitches inconsequential in your back bends
And your taste in men leaves something to de desired
You love them to be aloof and self obsessed
They love you in your mini dress
You are looking gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
How you look gorgeous
When your voice is raised above a certain level
I'm afraid you must go to the ladies room
I left your competence in curlers
You look gorgeous
You look gorgeous
You're looking gorgeous
Oh, Please
Fate stay with me, and guide me along my way
There has been so many problems
So please stay, please, stay
Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way
Will you end my troubles
Will you please stay, please...
I wanted money and hope and
A dream to carry me forever
This is all the hope I got left
Help me to get it together, now
I can sing or act or dance but I still won't get far
Unless you help me please to be a big star
I don't want to be a queen, no,
Or a princess with all my jewels, oh
If you could guide me
And you could help me
but don't go too far, I just want to be a star
Yes guide me
Forver guide me
Will you stay with me and guide me along the way
If I succeed because of you, fate my friend
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not hate your guts and
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I still love music just as much
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I do not eat my eye ?
After a year like this one
I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to every one
CHORUS:
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La La La La Li
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La La Li Li Li
La La La La La La La La De Di De Di La Di Da Di Di
La La la de di wo oh oh o...
After a year like this one
I'm surprised I am convinced at all and
After a year like this one
I do not roll my eyes at less than another
After a year like this one
I can't help but wonder how they've been and
After a year like this one
I think I'll leave it all to my next of kin...
CHORUS
After a year like this one
I'm surprised we're all not weeping drunks and
After a year like this one
I want you to choose the restaurant and then
After a year like this one
I'll need a good whole 16 months alone and
After a year like this one
I think I'll thank the west coast beaches I came home.
CHORUS
Get up, don't get up
I beg you to sit tight
Sweet girl, I'll be a ghost, girl
Forget it, I am fine
If anything, a witnessing
Is all I needed that night
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
Brother, oh, brother
Solo you did bust out
All I knew was you didn't invite me
So begin seeds of self-doubt
There is nothing as harrowing
As how I translate facts
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves
Baby, oh, partner
How well you've played this part
Similar, oh, how familiar
Reluctant truth you impart
And how you served necessity
Repeat 'til she sees light
Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
I would never have been in such a rush
I would never have tried to control
I would never have worn such 'fear lenses'
I would never have held on so tightly
I would have kept my boundaries set
My loving no’s, my unwavering yes’s
Risked abandonment and stood by that
And thereby felt constant connect
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
I would’ve gone slower
Pushed infrequent
Would not have rushed into such commitment
I would’ve shown restraint as my feet got wet
I would’ve baby-stepped into intimate
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
This torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if i knew then what i know now
I would’ve known much more
Known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold
I would’ve had more faith at every step
I would’ve kept intact through the whole process
Oh this fountain of regret is looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
"I am someone easy to leave"
"Even easier to forget"
a voice, if inaccurate
Again: "I'm the one they all run from"
diatribes of clouded sun
someone help me find the pause button
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
"I'm too exhausting to be loved"
"a volatile chemical"
"best to quarantine and cut off"
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
Wreaking havoc
"I'm but a thorn in your sweet side"
"You are better off without me"
"It'd be best to leave at once"
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren't my own
I've never been this accountable-less and within
I've never known focuslessness on any form
I've never had this lack of ache for dalliance
To let go and let god in ways I have never even imagined
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
I've never let my grasp soften fingers like this
I've never been careless otherless like autonomy's twin
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
Ah to breathe
Stop looking outside
stop searching in corners of rooms
Not my business or timing
Ahhh
I've never known freedom from intertwining
I start again this time for keeps in my skin I'm residing
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I declare a full time out from all things commitment
I declare a moratorium on things relationship
I declare a respite from the toils of liaison
I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement
I've been most unwilling to see this turmoil of mine
The thought of sitting with this has me paralyzed
With this prolong exposure to mirror and averted eyes
I've feigned that I've been waiting: such mileage for empathizing
[Chorus]
And now I see the maddness in me is brought out in the presence of you
And now I know the madness lives on, when you're not in the room
And though I'd love to blame you for all, I'd miss these moments of opportune
You've simply brought this madness to light and I should thank you
Oh thank you, much thanks for this bird's eye view
Oh thank you for your most generous triggers
It's been all too easy to cross my arms and roll my eyes
The thought of dropping all arms leaves me terrified
[Chorus]
I'd have to give up knowing and give up being right
You inadvertent hero, you angel in disguise
Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we
Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand
Feign brave with steel intent
little and hardly here
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
with not much making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we
Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose
Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as I
You are the bravest man I’ve ever met
You unreluctant at treacherous ledge
You are the sexiest man I’ve ever been with
You, never hotter than with armor spent
When you do what you do to provide
How you land in the soft as you fortify
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
You, with your eyes mix strength with abandon
You with your new kind of heroism
And I bow and I bow down to you
To the grace that it takes to melt on through
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man
You are the greatest man I’ve ever met
You the stealth setter of new precedents
And I vow and I vow to be true
And I vow and I vow to not take advantage
This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
It's been 10 years of investment
It's been one foot in and one out
It's been 4 days of ??
and I feel snuffed out
It's been 33 years of restraining
Of trying to control this tumult
How I did invest in such fantasy
But my nervous system has worn out
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
and all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
I've repeated this dance ad-nauseum
There's still something to learn that I've not
I'm told to see this as divine perfection
But my bones don't feel this perfection
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
and all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up
I've spent life hovering above bottom
Thinking I can't survive what's below
But I've known through the kicking and screaming
That there was no other direction to go
I feel done, I feel raked over coals
and all that remains is the case
I am driving in my car up highway one
I left LA without telling anyone
There were people who needed something from me
But I am sure they’ll get along fine on their own
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
I am dancing with my friends in elation
We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun
I can feel the bones are smiling in my body
I can see the meltings of inhibition
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
And I’m giggling again for no reason
I’m reeling jubilation
Triumphant in delight
I am at home in this high five
And I’m smiling for no reason
I am sitting at the set of cali sun
We’ve gotten quiet for its’ last precious seconds
I can feel the salt of the sea on my skin
And we still hear the echoes of abandon
Oh this state of ecstasy
Nothing but road could ever give to me
This liberty wind in my face
I start up in the north, I grow from special seed
I sprinkle it with sensibility
From French and Hungarian snow
I linger in the sprouting until my engine's full
Then I move across the sea
To European bliss, to language of poets
As I cut the cord of home, I kiss my mother's mother
Look to the horizon
Wide eyed, new ground
Humbled by my new surroundings
I am a citizen of the planet
My president is Kwan Yin
My frontier is on an airplane
My prisons, homes for rehabilitating
Then I fly back to my nest
I fly back with my nuclear
But everything is different
So I wait
My yearn for home is broadened
Patriotism expanded by callings from beyond
So I pack my things, nothing precious
All things sacred
I am a citizen of the planet
My laws are all of attraction
My punishments are consequences
Separating from source the original sin
I am a citizen of the planet
Democracy's kids are sovereign
Where the teachers are the sages
And pedestals fill with every parent
And so, the next few years are blurry
The next decade's a flurry of smells and tastes unknown
Threads sewn straight through this fabric
Through fields of every color, one culture to another
And I come alive and I get giddy
And I am taken and globally naturalized
I am a citizen of the planet
From simple roots through high vision
I am guarded by the angels
My body guides the direction I go in
I am a citizen of the planet
My favorite pastime edge stretching
Besotten with human condition
Why no one will help me
I am too dumb I am too smart
They'll not understand me
I am lonely
They'll hate me
And there is not enough time
It's too hard to help me
And god wants me to work
No resting no lazy
These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
I'm too far from home
It takes far too much energy
And I cannot afford to
No one will ever see me
These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked
They've kept me small
They've kept me safe in my own shell
Bringing this into the light
Shakes their foundation
And it clears my side
Now my imagination
Is the only thing that limits
The bar that is raised to the heights
No one can have it all see
I have to they want me to
And I can't let them down
I'll never be happy
These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked
They've kept me small
Eight easy steps
Eight easy steps
How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solvable predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
How to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite
How to hate God when you're a prayer and a spiritualist
How to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success
How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
How to numb a la holic to avoid going within
How to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything
I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in eight easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solvable predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
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In eight easy steps
A course of a lifetime you'll never forget
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Eight easy steps
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What's it been over a decade?
It still smarts like it was four minutes ago
We only influenced each other totally
We only bruised each other even more so
What are you my blood?
You touch me like you are my blood
What are you my dad?
You affect me like you are my dad
How long can a girl be shackled to you?
And how long before my dignity is reclaimed?
And how long can a girl stay haunted by you?
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Where have you been? I heard you moved to my city
My brother saw you somewhere downtown
I'd be paralyzed if I ran into you
My tongue would seize up if we were to meet again
What are you my God?
You touch me like you are my God
What are you my twin?
You affect me like you are my twin
How long can a girl be tortured by you?
And how long before my dignity is reclaimed?
And how long can a girl be haunted by you?
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
So here I am, one room away from where I know you're standing
A well-intentioned man told me you just walked in
This man knows not of how this information has affected me
But he knows the color of the car I just drove away in
What are you my kin?
You touch me like you are my kin
What are you my air?
You affect me like you are my air
And how long can a girl be tortured by you?
And how long before my dignity is reclaimed?
And how long can a girl be haunted by you?
Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name
Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity?
But know that it alone does not equate wisdom
Do you see everything as an illusion?
But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine
Politically aware, and don't believe in capital punishment?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
Loving someone can actually feel like freedom?
Are you funny? A la self-deprecating
Like adventure and have many formed opinions
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover
I'm in no hurry, I could wait forever
I'm in no rush 'cause I like being solo
No worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
I'll live like there's no tomorrow
Are you uninhibited in bed more than three times a week
Up for being experimental?
Are you athletic? Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?
Are you not addicted?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice of the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover
You've been my golden best friend
Now with post-demise at hand
Can't go to you for consolation
Cause we're off limits during this transition
This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And i can't stop bumping into things
I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But i was sadly mistaken
You've been my soulmate and mentor
I remembered you the moment i met you
With you i knew god's face was handsome
With you i suffered an expansion
This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And i can't stop dropping everything
I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But i was sadly mistaken
If i had a bill for all the philosophies i shared
If i had a penny for all the possibilities i presented
If i had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe
I thought we'd be genius together
I thought we'd be healing together
I thought we'd be growing together
Thought we'd be adventurous togheter
But i was sadly mistaken
Thought we'd be exploring together
Thought we'd be inspired together
I thought we'd be flying together
Thought we'd be on fire together
Who am I to be blue
Look at my family and fortune
Look at my friends and my house
Who am i to feel deadend
Who am i to feel spent
Look at my health and my money
And where
Where do i go to feel good
Why do i still look outside me
When clearly i've seen it won't work
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
And why
Why do i feel so ungrateful
Me who is far beyond survival
Me who see life as an oyster
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
And how
How dare i rest on my laurels
How dare i ignore an outstreched hand
How dare i ignore a third world country
Is it my calling to keep on when i'm unable
And is it my job to be selfless extraodinairre
And my generosity has me disabled
By this my sense of duty to offer
You from New York, you are so relevant
You reduce me to cosmic tears
Luminous more so than most anyone
Unapologetically alive, knot in my stomach and lump in my throat
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
Supposed former infatuation junkie
I sink three pointers and you wax poetically
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
Let's grease the wheel over tea
Let's discuss things in confidence
Let's be outspoken let's be ridiculous
Let's solve the world's problems
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
I love you when you dance, when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
My misery has enjoyed company
And although I have ached
I don't threaten anybody
Sometimes I feel more bigness than I've shared with you
Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I'm not required to
I've tried to be small I've tried to be stunted
I've tried roadblocks and all
My happy endings prevented
Sometimes I feel it's all just too big to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?)
I could be golden
I could be glowing
I could be freedom
But that could be boring
Sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of losing you
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude
Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?)
This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down
Under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone
I could be full
I could be thriving
I could be shining
Sounds isolating
Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do
Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude
that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing
that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy
that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you
how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo
thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time
thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence
the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down
how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping
thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence
I am the biggest hypocrite
I've been undeniably jealous
I have been loud and pretentious
I have been utterly threatened
I've gotten candy for my self-interest
the sexy treadmill capitalist
heaven forbid I be criticized
heaven forbid I be ignored
I have abused my power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
I've been out of reach and separatist
heaven forbid average (whatever average means)
I have compensated for my days
of powerlessness
I have abused my so-called power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
did you just call her amazing?
surely we both can't be amazing!
and give up my hard earned status
as fabulous freak of nature?
I have abused my power forgive me
you mean we actually are all one
one one one one one one one
always looked good on paper
you hadn't seen your father in such a long time
he died in the arms of his lover how dare he
your mother never left the house
she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her
you reminded her so much of your father
so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive
and why you can't trust anyone but us
but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me
I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems
not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour
how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood
I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know
i've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get
you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?
just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye
I remember how they would creak loudly
she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
I was only trying to be the best big brother I could
i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw
can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes
it feels like highway robbery
and sometimes it's peanuts
I wish it could last a couple more hours
so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally)
you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry
you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
do you go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days in the dungeon writing a letter
to you didn't make me feel any more peaceful then how I felt when we weren't speaking because I
didn't cop to what I did. I can't love you because we're supposed to have professional boundaries. i'd
like you to be schooled and in awe as though you were kissed by god full on the lips . i'm in the front
row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up i'm too tired to recount the
unpleasantries one by one one minute I want to banish you the next I want to be on
a deserted island with you along with my three favorite cd's ambivalent yet in your
bed we've yet to acknowledge what really happened
slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of ambition we said let's name thirty good reasons why
we shouldn't be together I started by saying things like "you smoke" "you live in new jersey (too far)"
you started saying things like "you belong to the world" all of which could have been easily
refuted but the conversation was hypothetical I am totally short of breath for you why can't you shut
your stuff off..... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up
and I laughed until my lungs hurt I love how you bust my chops you don't always
feel seen sometimes you feel erasable unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my
current state I think we should be careful of how much time we spend together
........for a while i'm speaking you know how much you hate to be interrupted maybe spend some
time alone to fill up your proverbial cup so that it doesn't always have to be about you i've been wanting
your undivided attention I like the fact that you're nothing like me are you not burdened by the lack of
perspective people have of your charmed life i'm in the front row the front row with
popcorn I get to see you see you close up you never meant to be ungrateful nor held up to
be whipped or wept for certainly not analysed prodded at more ways than one
apparently you've been misrepresented dealing with the concept of arrows being
slung towards your outrageous fortune
hey i'm not mad at you guardian i'm mad at myself for spending so much time with you and your
jeckyl and hydeness i'm glad i figuratively slapped you on the wrist you laughed a wicked laugh
and said "come here let me clip your wings!"(i know he's blood but you can still turn him away you
don't owe him anything) "raise the roof" he yelled "yeah raise the roof!" I yelled back. (unfortunately
you needed a health scare to reprioritize.) no thanks to the soap box. having me rile against them
won't make an ounce of difference...... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn. I get to see
you see you close up oh the things i've done for you many a sitch a friend a man's
been left for you oh the books i've read for you the tongues i've bitten for you many
you are the original template
you are the original exemplary
how seen were actually
how revered were you (honestly) at the time
why pleased with you low maintenance
you loved us more than we could've loved you back
where was you ally your partner in feminine crime
oh mother who's your buddy
oh mother who's got your back
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
you were good ol'
you were count on 'er 'til four am
you saw me run from the house
in the snow melodramatically
oh mother who's your sister
oh mother who's your friend
the heart of the house
the heart of that house
all hail the goddess!
we left the men and we went for a walk in the gatineaus
and talked like women to women would
womyn to womyn would where did you get that from
must've been your father your dad
I got it from you I got it from you
do you see yourself in my gipsy garage sale ways
in my fits of laughter
in my tinkerbell tendencies
in my lack of color coordination
As we were talking outside it was cold
We were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter
My wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know
Please don't tell her or anyone but I need to talk to somebody
You said "Wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was
Five minutes before I'd died, I'd be filled with such regret
Before I took my last breath" and I said, "You're willing to tell me this now
And you're not going to die anytime soon
And I said, "I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything
And you said, "Yes but you've been wearing leather"
And laughed and said, "We're at the top of the food chain"
And yes you're still a fine woman and I cringed
I was hoping, I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping, I was hoping we could be raw together
We left the restaurant where the head waiter in his 60's said
"Goodbye sir, thank you for your business sir you're
Successful and established sir and
We like the frequency with which you dine here sir and your money"
And when I walked by they said, "Thank you too dear"
I was all pigtails and cords
And there was a day when I would've said something like
"Hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it
I too once thought I was owed something"
I was hoping, I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping, I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
And I too once thought life was cruel
Well, it's a cycle really you think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping
I think you're insensitive and I don't feel heard
And I said, "Do you believe we are
Fundamentally judgmental, fundamentally evil?"
And you said "Yes", I said, "I don't believe in revenge
In right or wrong good or bad" you said
"Well what about the man that I saw handcuffed
In the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid?"
And she threw a shoe at his head
I think what he did was wrong
And I would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged"
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
you are the original template
you are the original exemplary
how seen were actually?
how revered were you (honestly) at the time?
why pleased with you low maintenance?
you loved us more than we could've loved you back
where was you ally your partner in feminine crime?
oh mother who's your buddy?
oh mother who's got your back?
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
you were "good ol'"
you were "count on 'er 'til four am"
you saw me run from the house
in the snow melodramatically
oh mother who's your sister?
oh mother who's your friend?
the heart of the house
the heart of that house
all hail the goddess!
we left the men and we went for a walk in the gatineaus
and talked like women to women would
womyn to womyn would "where did you get that from?
must've been your father your dad"
I got it from you I got it from you
do you see yourself in my gipsy garage sale ways?
in my fits of laughter?
in my tinkerbell tendencies?
Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem...why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are
I've seen them kneel with baited breath for their rituals
I've watched this experience raise them to pseudo higher levels
I've watched them leave their families in pursuit of your nirvana
I've seen them coming to line up from Switzerland and America
How long will this take, baba?
How long have we been sleeping?
Do you see me hanging onto every word you say?
How soon will I be holy?
How much will this cost, guru?
How much longer till you completely absolve me?
I've seen them give their drugs up in place of makeshift altars
I've heard them chanting, Kali Kali frantically
I've heard them rotely repeat your teachings with elitism
I've seen them boasting robes and foreign sandalwood beads
How long will this take, baba?
How long have we been sleeping?
Do you see me hanging onto every word you say?
How soon will I be holy?
How much will this cost, guru?
How much longer till you completely absolve me?
I've seen men overlooking God in their own essence
I've seen their upward glances in hopes of instant salvation
I've seen their righteousness mixed without loving compassion
I've watched you smile as the students bow to kiss your feet
How long will this take, baba?
How long have we been sleeping?
Do you see me hanging onto every word you say?
How soon will I be holy?
How much will this cost, guru?
How much longer till you completely absolve me?
Give me strength all knowing one
How long 'til enlightenment?
How much longer 'til you completely absolve me?
are you still mad I kicked you out of bed?
are you still mad I gave you ultimatums?
are you still mad I compared you to all
my forty year old male friends?
are you still mad I shared our problems
with everybody?
are you still mad I had an emotional affair?
are you still mad I tried to mold you into
who I wanted you to be?
are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions?
of course you are
of course you are
are you still mad that I flirted wildly?
are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you?
are you still mad that I had one foot out of the door?
are you still mad that we slept together even after
we had ended it?
of course you are
of course you are
are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time?
are you still mad that I seemed to focus
only on your potential?
are you still mad that I threw in the towel?
are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?
of course you are
I don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yours
I don't want to be your glass of single malt whiskey
Hidden in the bottom drawer
I don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mine
Lend me some fresh air
I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you
I don't want to be your babysitter
You're a very big boy now
I don't want to be your mother
I didn't carry you in my womb for nine months
Show me the back door
Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6
Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom
You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor
I don't want to be the sweeper of the egg shells that you walk upon
And I don't want to be your other half, I believe that 1 and 1 make 2
I don't want to be your food or the light from the fridge on your face
At midnight, hey
What are you hungry for
I don't want to be the glue that holds your pieces together
I don't want to be your idol
See this pedestal is high and I'm afraid of heights
I don't want to be lived through
A vicarious occasion
Please open the window
Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6
Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom
You see it's too much to ask for and I am not the doctor
I don't want to live on someday when my motto is last week
I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart
And it's wounded beat
I don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling
What do you thank me
What do you thank me for
Visiting hours are 9 to 5 and if I show up at 10 past 6
Well I already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom
What's the matter Mary Jane, had a hard day
As you place the don't disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore
It's a long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And you're on it
I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane
What's the point of trying to dream anymore
I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane
Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for?
Well it's full speed baby
In the wrong direction
There's a few more bruises
If that's the way
You insist on heading
Please be honest Mary Jane
Are you happy?
Please don't censor your tears
You're the sweet crusader
And you're on your way
You're the last great innocent
And that's why I love you
So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish
Worry not about the cars that go by
'Cause all that matters Mary Jane is your freedom
So keep warm my dear, keep dry
Tell me, tell me
What's the matter Mary Jane
Tell me, tell me
Please be honest Mary Jane
Wait a minute man
You mispronounced my name
You didn't wait for all the information
Before you turned me away
Wait a minute sir
You kind of hurt my feelings
You see me as a sweet back-loaded puppet
And you've got meal ticket taste
I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you
You took me for a joke
You took me for a child
You took a long hard look at my ass
And then played golf for a while
Your shake is like a fish
You pat me on the head
You took me out to wine dine 69 me
But didn't hear a damn word I said
I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you
Hello Mr. Man
You didn't think I'd come back
You didn't think I'd show up with my army
And this ammunition on my back
Now that I'm Miss Thing
Now that I'm a zillionaire
You scan the credits for your name
And wonder why it's not there
I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
Do I stress you out?
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say, "How appropriate"
I don't dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
An' there I go jumpin' before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter
And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
Do I wear you out?
You must wonder why I'm relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the maker
And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature, ya
An' what I wouldn't give to find a soul mate?
Someone else to catch this drift
An' what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred?
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness
And the sound of pretenses is fallin'
All around, all around
Why are you so petrified of silence?
Here can you handle this?
Did you think about your bills, you ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die?
Or did you long for the next distraction?
An' all I need now is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flyin'
If only I could kill the killer
An' all I really want is some peace man
A place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
An' all I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice
Ah, aao, aao, aao, aa, aah
'Cause all I really want is some patience
[Inaudible]
And all I really want is deliverance
A place to find a common ground
And all I really want is some justice
I know there's a reason you're forcing a smile
You hide what you're feeling and you have for a while
I can tell that you're falling
And you feel that you can't go on
But a new day is calling
And you'll see that the feeling is gone
You know you're not the only one
Who has a lot to overcome
And when the time has come then you move on
'Cause you've been crying for too long
Sometimes life is so unkind
But change is never a waste of time
I know how you're feeling, I've been there before
The hurting is something much to strong to ignore
Don't be waiting for someone
Who can take all your fear away
When there's no one to listen
That is when you should not be afraid
It's late at night and no one's around
And only my heart is making a sound
I lay awake alone in my bed
And I can't sleep should I call you instead
I think of you far too much 'cause you, you're one of a kind
I'm not like an open book
'cause I've got something in mind
You know I can't deny the way I feel inside
I won't be hiding my love
You know I can't disguise you're always on my mind
And now I can't get enough
Give me love, I know that you can
I like the strength of a confident man
It's in my blood and all through my veins
You feel it once and you're never the same
Whenever I close my eyes you're there. I feel it inside
But why am I holding in my love, I can't tell you why
I think of you far too much 'cause you, you're one of a kind
I'm not like an open book 'cause I've got something in mind
You know I , you know I, I can't deny
Every day you're always on my mind
You know I , you know I, I can't disguise
You've got to give it all to baby
You know I want it all for me
I wanna get to know you baby
Is that a possibility
Hey, you're my man, I'm your woman
And I'm not too proud to tell you what you do to my head
I'm not kiddin'
You've got everythin' that any girl would want, yes you do
You're just wishin'
Well it's time you know the truth and that is
When you are beggin' me for money
Just got to tell me what you need
But if you want my lovin' buddy
You've got to get down on your knees
You've got to give what you got and take what I'm givin' you baby
You've got to want what you see and see what I'm givin' away
Hey, stick with me, I'm your momma
And you can run to momma every time your skin you knee
No one ever,
Could ever take your place, the way you move makes me hot
Let me tell you,
You won't be satisfied without me
You've got to give it all to baby
You know I want it all for me
I wanna get to know you baby
I had high expectations
It's something I could not compromise
And when I saw you I wasn't ready
It completely took my heart by surprise
Who...And when I think of the time I med you
The situation looked harmless
It wasn't long before I got confused enough
And soon I realized that your...
[CHORUS:]
Love is just an emotion away
I know it's gonna get to you
Love will be only a moment away
A moment away you know it's true
Lately the way I'm feeling
It's something I could never have planned
I knew that one day I'd find a love thing
Now I'll never stop believing in chance
I put my heart on a shelf forever
I never thought I would find you
I didn't know any better baby
But then I realized that your...
[CHORUS]
Love is crazy love love is crazy and soon you're gonna get some
Music and Lyrics by Alanis, Leslie Howe, & Serge Cote
I know there's a reason you're forcing a smile
You hide what you're feeling and you have for a while
I can tell that you're falling
And you'll see that the feeling is gone
But a new day is calling
And you feel that you can't go on
Chorus:
You know you're not the only one
And when the time has come then you move on
'Cause you've been crying for too long
But change is never a waste of time
Sometimes life is so unkind
Who has a lot to overcome
I know how you're feeling, I've been there before
The hurting is something much to strong to ignore
Who can take all your fear away
Don't be waiting for someone
That is when you should not be afraid
When there's no one to listen
Repeat Chorus
These are the thoughts that go through my head
in my backyard on a sunday afternoon
when I have the house to myself and I am not
expending all that energy on fighting
with my boyfriend
Is he the one that I will marry
and why is it so hard to be objective about
myself why do I feel cellularly alone
am I supposed to live in this crazy city
can blindly continued fear-induced regurtitated life-denying tradition
be overcome
Where does the money go that I send
to those in need, if we have so much why do some people have nothing
still why do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning
why do you say you are spiritual, yet you treat people like shit
How can you say you're close to God, and yet you talk behind
my back as though I'm not a part of you, why do I say I'm fine
when it's obvious I'm not, why's it so hard to tell you what I want
why can't you just read my mind?
Why do I fear that the quieter I am
the less you will listen
why do I care whether you like me or not
why's it so hard for me to be angry
why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck
and not the other way around
Will I ever move back to Canada
Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student
and a master, oh why am I encouraged to shut my mouth
when it gets too close to home, why cannot I
live in the moment
please be philosophical
please be tapped into your femininity
please be able to take the wheel from me
please be crazy and curious
papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar
papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar
please be a sexaholic
please be unpredictably miserable
please be self absorbed much (not the good kind)
please be addicted to some substance
papa listen to your princess so that she will find attentive princes familiar
papa hear your princess so that she will find curious princes familiar
please be the jerk of my knee i've fit you always
you finish my sentences I think I love you
what is your name again no matter i'm guessing your thoughts again correctly and I love the way
you press my buttons so much sometimes I could strangle you
papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar
papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar
please be strangely enigmatic
There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall
That's my soul up there
There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall
That's my soul up there
There's a blue whale beached by a springtide's ebb
That's my soul up there
There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out
There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt
There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed
There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread
There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack
There's a black-winged gull with a broken back
There's a little black spot on the sun today
It's the same old thing as yesterday
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the queen of pain
queen of pain
I'll always be queen of pain
And you're like a 90's Jesus
And you revel in your psychosis
How dare you?
You sample concepts like hors d'oeurves
And you eat their questions for dessert
And is it just me or is it hot in here?
And you're like a 90's Kennedy
And you're only a million years old
They can't fool you
They'll throw opinions like rocks in riots
And they'll stumble around like hypocrites
And is it just me or is it dark in here?
You may never be or have a husband
You may never have or hold a child
You will learn to loose everything
We are temporary arrangements
And you're like a 90's Noah
And they laughed at you when you packed all of your things
And they wonder why you're frustrated
And they wonder why you're so angry
Is it just me or are you fed up
And god bless you in you're travels
in your conquests and queries...
Make sure she's alright
She just can't wait to party
She'll make it look so easy
Why won't you listen to me
Yeah
Jealousy-some girls have it rough oh baby
Loyalty-why is that so tough, the trust is gone
Jealous don't you know your girl is jealous
She can't help but be suspicious
Can't you see, that girl is jealous
So better make it right
Cruelty-it's easy for him to be
Fallacy-you're out on a limb for him
Conspiracy Anxiety she just can't wait to party
Strategy totally she'll make it look so easy
Loyalty disagree why won't you listen to me
Fantasy Novelty she will be free
Jealous-it's no fallacy
Jealous-she doesn't trust you much
Suspicious-so baby can't you see that girl
My name is Alanis. I'm a white chick singer
the drums are a-smokin' and so's the bass
Shake your thing
When you sing
just sixteen
no disco queen
I'm a white chick singer I've seen the world I've got
a lession 4u I'm your teacher girl
Two words you'll be hearin' will
shake the earth so repeat after me
No need to be rehearsed
Oh yeah
My name is Alanis I'm just sixteen so
please gimme a break I'm no disco queen
Just hear what I'm sayin' you don't
wanna miss I got a message 4U and it
goes like this
Ride my train
Go insane
your teacher girl
rules your world
Now don't overdo it when you shake your thing
cause you'll be goin' insane when you start
to sing
Without special training an amateur
Could be a casuality case if they sing
these words
Yo-Ah Yo-Ah
Wo-oh Yeah!
The drums are a smokin' and so's the
bass they keep on pumpin' a groove and it'll melt your face
Comon' everybody and blow your mind
Because you'l never escape these 2
words of mine
Baby, I've got this thing for you
I'm thinkin' there's somethin' goin' on now
A wicked imagination
A serious kind of somethin' new
It's drivin' me right out of my mind now
It's gotta be desperation
Can't feel no pain when I'm thinking about you
Dreamin' isn't black and white
Can't make no gain 'til my vision c-comes true
Give it to me like I'd like to give it to you
Love I wanna feel your love
Right from the bottom of my heart to your hands
(now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love
You know this waitin' for you boy I can't stand
Bein' just who you wanna be and doin' whatever
comes to mind now
I gotta get information
Never knew what to do with you
You're givin' me sometin' to hold on to
My newest infatuation
"People Power" means I gotta believe you
Can't you hear the voices callin'
Keep your flowers cause their colour will turn blue
Give it to me like I'd like to give it to you
Love I wanna feel your love
Right from the bottom of your heart to your hands
(now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love
You like snow but only if it's warm
You like rain but only if it's dry
No sentimental value to the rose that fell on your floor
No fundamental excuse for the granted I'm taken for
'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
You like pain but only if it doesn't hurt too much
And you sit...and you wait...to receive
There's an abvious attraction
To the path of least resistance in your life
There's an obvious aversion no amount of my insistance
Could make you try tonight
'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you to you to you to you to you...
There's no love no money no thrill anymore
There's an apprehensive naked little trembling boy
With his head in his hands
There's an underestimated and impatient little girl
Raising her hand
But it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you, to you
get up get up get up off of it
get up get up get up off of it
get out get outta here enough already
get up get up get up off of it
Coercing or leaving
Shutting down and punishing
Running from rooms, defending
Withholding, justifying
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
Diagnosing, analyzing
Unsolicited advice
Explaining and controlling,
Judging opining and meddling
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
Still leave their mark once disappeared
This labeling
This pointing
this sensitive's unraveling
This sting I've been ignoring
I feel it way down way down
These versions of violence
Sometimes subtle sometimes clear
And the ones that go unnoticed
I'll give you countless amounts of outright
Acceptance if you want it
I will give you encouragement to choose
The path you want if you need it
You can speak of anger and doubts
Your fears and freak outs and I'll hold it
You can share your so called shame filled accounts
Of times in your life and I won't judge it
(And there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
You can ask for space for yourself
And only yourself and I'll grant it
You can ask for freedom as well
Or time to travel and you'll have it
You can ask to live by yourself
Or love someone else and I'll support it
You can ask for anything you want
Anything at all and I'll understand it.
(And there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
I bet you're wondering when
The next payback shoe will eventually drop
I bet you're wondering when my conditional police
Will force you to cough up
I bet you're wondering how far
You have now danced your way back into debt
This is the only kind of love, as I understand it
That there really is
You can express your deepest of truths
Even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it
You can fall into the abyss
On your way to your bliss, I'll empathize with
You can say that you'll have to skip town
To chase your passion and I'll hear it
You can even hit rock bottom
Have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it
(And there are no strings attached to it)
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
And you owe me nothing in return
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege
First woman down was your mother
She did condone how you behave
All you could see was your father
His disrespect was in her face
Next woman down was your sister
Her silence did corroborate
She took her cues from the climate
And never knew another way
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take –come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate? –woman down
Next woman down was your lover
She takes your spite at value face
Even her hair length and color
Gives you the impulse to repeat
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take—come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Are you willing to clean the slate?—woman down
Next woman down is your daughter
A stranger to being debased
She has a new lease and limit
On the abuse she'll tolerate
Who do you take me for
Calling all woman haters
We've lowered the bar on the
Behavior that we will take—come on now
Calling all lady haters
Why must you vilify us
Fui a tu casa
subí las escaleras
y abrí la puerta sin llamar al timbre.
Atravesé el recibidor
hasta llegar a tu cuarto
donde podia olerte.
Y no debería estar aquí
sin tu permiso.
no debría estar aquí.
podrías perdonarme si bailo en tu ducha?
podrías perdonarme si me acuesto en tu cama?
podrias perdonarme si me quedo toda la tarde?
me quité mi ropa
y me puse la tuya.
y en tu armario encontré tu colonia.
en el piso de abajo en contré tus cd´s
y escuché tu Joni.
No debería quedarme mucho tiempo
tú estarás en casa pronto
no debería quedarme mucho tiempo
podrías perdonarme si bailo en tu ducha?
podrías perdonarme si me acuesto en tu cama?
podrias perdonarme si me quedo toda la tarde?
encendí tus cenizas
tomé un bañó y luego encontré una carta en tu escritorio
decía:hola cariño, te quiero tanto
reúnete conmigo a medianoche".
esa no era mi letra
debería irme pronto
no era mi letra
Así que perdoname amor, si lloro en tu ducha
perdoname por las lágrimas en tu cama
Look at us break our bonds in this kitchen
Look at us rallying all our defenses
Look at us waging war in our bedroom
Look at us jumping ship in our dialogues
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath
Look at us our form our cliques in our sandbox
Look at us micro kids with both our hearts blocked
Look at us turn away from all the rough spots
Look at dictatorship on my own block
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here, our underneath
How I've spun my wheels with carts before my horse
When shine on the outside springs from the root
Spotlight on these seeds of simpler reasons
This core, born into form, starts in our living room
There is no difference in what we're doing in here
That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there
So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages
I miss your smell and your style
And your pure abiding way
Miss your approach to life
And your body in my bed
Miss your take on anything
And the music you would play
Miss cracking up and wrestling
Our debriefs at end of day
These are the things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
And I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
I miss your neck and your gait
And your sharing what you write
Miss you walking through the front door
Documentaries in your hand
Miss traveling our traveling
And your fun and charming friends
Miss our Big Sur getaways
And to watch you love my dogs
These are the things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
And I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
One step one prayer
I soldier on
Stimulating moving on
I miss your warmth and the thought
Of us bringing up our kids
And the part of you that walks with your stick-tied handkerchief
These are the things that I miss
These are not times for the weak of heart
These are the days of raw despondence
I wake up and first things first
I'm of service
I make sure your needs are met, I'm so selfless
I give hard and serve hard and now I, I need a break
I give in, I give all and now it's time to degenerate
Chorus:
Today's all about me, all about how I'm feeling
Today's all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I move on through offerings, I found exciting
In this slow on list of words of understanding
I give hard, ṗrovide hard and now I need some relief
I look out, I prefer and now I need some respect and teed (?)
Chorus:
Today's all about me, all about how I'm feeling
Today's all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
My habit to love you first, in me it lingers
To renew it's only a joke, leaves me a stranger
I give hard and fight hard and now I need to retreat
I give out, dedicate and now I need to acknowledge me
Chorus:
Today's all about me, all about how I'm feeling
Today's all about me learning how, how to receive
How to receive,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
How to receive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
We play the game with determination
We don't give a dam 'bout our reputation baby
It's not a game, it's a revelation
Step inside the real world
The real world...yeah yeah yeah... The real world...yeah...
It's been every day now, and it just won't go away now...no
Life is so intense now, not much common sense now yeah
And late in the night I turn out my light yeah
A song in my head, and it says "STEP INSIDE THE REAL WORLD"
We play the game with determination
We don't give a damn 'bout our reputation baby
It's not a game, it's a revelation
Just another day in the real world...yeah, the real world
I can make decisions with no one else believin' me
I just look inside me 'cause I've got my own voice to guide me
It came in a dream, a light so extreme yeah
A voice in my head, and it says "STEP INSIDE THE REAL WORLD"
Ya gotta step inside the real world STEP-IN-SIDE-THE-REAL-WORLD
I woke from the dream, I know what it means yeah
That voice in my head...It says "YOU'RE HERE INSIDE THE REAL WORLD"
I'm wise and ambitious
And angry and free
And smart and available
And sexy...
I'm soft and appealing
And wearing pajamas
And twisted and willing
And crazy...
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to throw her on the floor.
And thought-provoking
And opinionated
Cultured and funny
And experienced...
Fearless and tender
And sweetly innocent
Uninhibited
Likes a good debate.
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to tie her to the bed.
I could fall in love a million times before I die
You could draw me a bubble bath
We could walk into the sunset...
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella
Who can use her
And it's all you could do not to keep her sober.
And this is the story of the death of Cinderella
I'm gonna grow to be a maid and I'll never find a fella
Who can use me
It was the night Rod Stewart played
And we were, were standing in the pouring rain
If I had known it was the last time I would see you again...
I would change everything...
I look through the broken glass I watch the storm go through my mind
There's so much I had to say I know the words I left behind
And now I'm caught in a daydream with nowhere to run and hide
The world rushes by me, it's leaving me here all alone
(I would change everything, but I can't do anything
I would give all that I have to know where you are)
CHORUS:
I'll always carry you inside my heart and you
You'll never know how much I wonder where you are
I always knew that you would take a part of me away with you
And I never got to say good-bye
I look in the mirror now and all I see is yesterday
At night I hear your voice and it is calling out my name
And with every hour just hold on to what you can
They're lost in a moment and fading away in the night
(I would change everything, but I can't do anything
I would give all that I have just to know where you are)
CHORUS
...and I never..ever...said good-bye...
That night is just a memory
But I still feel you standing next to me
Entertain me for the tenth hour in a row again
Anesthetize me with your gossip and many random anecdotes
And fill every hour with activity or ear candy
Drop me off at intersections in any city metropolitan
And keep me in this state
And keep me purgatorying
And sing me back to sleep
This is far more than I had bargained for
Start every week with a break-neck urgent design
And end every speed day with my briefcase representing free time
Spending my fruits my purchases become my lifeline
Please give my love to my family
I'll doubtfully be home at christmas time
Don't disturb me in this state
Please leave me purgatorying
I'll be damned if i'm to wake
This is far more than i am equipped for
I've held you up like a deity
Like you're the sole owner of wings
This unrequited tunnel vision
And i wonder why i've not been writing
Please keep me in this state
Please keep me purgatorying
Please rock me back to sleep
This love is more than - than i have bargained for
I'll be damned if i'm to wake
What it feels to fall in to the pool
the hard shell bugs bite my forearm
my right index fingernail chewed to the quick
my cervix is a long (?)
my sprinklers go off at 6pm each day
and sometimes they spray unsuspecting visitors
my pimples are goosebumps(hairs?) all over my legs
my brow is furrowed and my vision is blurred
and how I do love London
and how I do love London
the birds make guttural sounds and protect me
my friends come to visit and love me a lot
I don't have the energy to fill this
I am like flight attendants on a 12 hour flight
and how I do love London
and how I do love London
I am intriguied by the boy with songs
sometimes they write sometimes they write a lot
the steam will smell of puke and left us in the shower
the hug will feel forced upon you inconsolable thing
and how I do love London
and how I do love London
deep breaths will not make my brain stand still
to be loved and swallowed are single and depraved
I love speaking french to the taxi drivers
we slept and were cold on the train out of france
and how I do love London
My house, my role
My friends, my man
My devotion to God
All amorphous, indefinite
Nothing?s been clear
Nothing?s been in
Nothing?s felt true
And I?ve never had both feet in
Nothing?s belonged
Nothing?s been yes
Nowhere?s been home
And I?m ready to be limbo no more
My taste, my peers
My identity, my affiliation
All amorphous, indefinite
Nothing?s been clear
Nothing?s been in
Nothing?s felt true
And I?ve never had both feet in
Nothing?s belonged
Nothing?s been yes
Nowhere?s been home
And I?m ready to be limbo no more
I sit with filled frames
And my books and my dogs at my feet
My friends by my side
My past in a heap
Thrown out most of my things
Only kept what I need to carve
Something consistent
And notably me
Tattoo on my skin
My teacher?s in heart
My house is a home
Something at last I can feel a part of
Sense of myself
My purpose is clear
My roots in the ground
Something at last I can feel a part of
Something aligned
To finally commit
Somewhere I belong
'Cause I?m ready to be limbo no more
My wisdom applied
A firm foundation
A vow to myself
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
The sun is up, the sky is blue it's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, open up your eyes
Dear Prudence, see the sunny skies
the wind is blowing, the birds will sing and you are part of everything
Dear Prudence, won't you open up your eyes
Look around, around...look around, round, round, round, round
Look around.
Dear Prudence, Let me see you smile
Dear Prudence, like a little child
the clouds will be the Daisy's change so let me see you smile again
Dear Prudence, won't you let me see you smile
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
the sun is up, the sky is blue it's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Look around, round, round, round, round
Look around, round, round, round, round
Look around, round, round, round, round
Look around, round, round, round, round
ahh ahhhh oh ahh haaa oohh
ahh ahhhh oh ahh haaa oohh
ahh ahhhh oh ahh haaa oohh
We can work it out
We can work it out
In a church by the face
He talks about the people going under
Only child knows...
A man decides after seventy years
That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door,
While those around him criticize and sleep...
And through a fractal on a breaking wall,
I see you my friend and touch your face again,
Miracles will happen as we dream
But we're never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive unless
We are a little...
Crazy yellow people walking through my head.
One of them's got a gun, shoot the other one.
And yet together they were friends at school
Ohh, get it, get it, get it, no no no!
If I were there when we first took the pill,
Then maybe, then maybe, then maybe, then maybe...
Miracles will happen as we speak.
Crazy...
No no, we'll never survive, unless we get a little...bit...
In a sky full of people, only some want to fly.
Isn't that crazy?
In a world full of people, only some want to fly.
Isn't that crazy?
Crazy...
In a heaven of people there's only some want to fly.
Isn't that crazy? crazy crazy...crazy...
I have tasted stardom still before I breathed
My something something something
And I have never left this ambitious city
And I've only known a lust for VIP
I have studied long and hard had to proceed
Nothing but my name in bright lights called to me
And I display the perfect amount of en oui
I'll carve my face a bit, you'll indulge me
Give me celebrity my kingdom to be famous
Tell me who I have to be
Starting to be famous
Never wonder who's pulling strings above me
Cause I'm aware of wheels, heels, and vintage Gucci
I'm on my twentieth round of vitamin v
By moon we gather
For the ascension
Great sky shelter us
With your endless compassion
Last survivor
It is you who must pass
Into the light of the new world
Under a sky of innocence
We are now all dying
In a slow black rain
Was it a failure
Of man and angels?
Was it a failure of love?
From this human river
Too cruel for winter
Welcome to the gates
A rehearsal for the silence
Pray we do not enter
Under a sky of innocence
We bathe in the seduction
Beautiful
The light is unraveling now
We open our arms to it
It is close to ground zero
I am no one
Yet I am everyone
We are nothing, but we are all
When I am still, I am inspired
We are not yet born
Half sadness
But half choice
When I am still I can hear
You speak most clearly
Father can you help me
For the ocean is big
And my boat is small
Before my body dies
I pray
That the river I was born to
May again wash over me
By god's touch I pray
That I may move from this consecrated
Earth
Into the next season
A dark season
Beyond the dying religions that
Seduced us
My soul will surrender
I went to your house
Walked up the stairs
I opened your door without ringing the bell
I walked down the hall
Into your room
Where I could smell you
And I shouldn't be here, without permission
I shouldn't be here
Would you forgive me love
If I danced in your shower
Would you forgive me love
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love
If I stay all afternoon
I took off my clothes
Put on your robe
I went through your drawers
And found your cologne
I went down to the den
I found your cd's
And I played your Joni
And I shouldn't stay long, you might be home soon
I shouldn't stay long
Would you forgive me love
If I danced in your shower
Would you forgive me love
If I laid in your bed
Would you forgive me love
If I stay all afternoon
I burned your incense
I ran a bath
And I noticed a letter that sat on your desk
It said "Hello love, I love you so love, meet me at midnight"
And no, it wasn't my writing
I'd better go soon
It wasn't my writing
So forgive me love
If I cry in your shower
So forgive me love
For the salt in your bed
So forgive me love
I wouldn't have compromised so much
so much of myself for fear of
having you hating me
I would've sung so loudly
it would've cracked myself!
I became self-conscious
of anything exuberant
I wouldn't have sold myself short
I wouldn't have kept my eyes
glued to the ground
if I had've known my invisibility
would not make a difference
I would've run around screaming proudly
at the top of my voice
I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck
i'm talking idealism here
I would not have been so self deprecating
I wouldn't have cowered
for fear of having my eyes scratched out!
I wouldn't have cut my comfort off
I wouldn't have feigned needlessness
I would not have discredited
every one of their compliments
it was your approval I wanted
I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
(chorus)
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service
(repeat chorus)
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now
Oh perilous place walk backwards toward you
Blink disbelieving eyes chilled to the bone
Most visibly brave no aprehended gloom
First to take this foot to virgin snow
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
And I lift the envelope pushed far enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to serve, destined to roam
Oh ominous place spellbound and unchild-proofed
My least favorite chill to bare alone
Compatriots in place they'd cringe if I told you
Our best back-pocket secret our bond full-blown
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
I am a pioneer naive enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to seek, destined to know
Most beautiful place reborn and blown off roof
My view about-face whether great will be done
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
I am a ground-breaker naive enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind oh oh oh oooooh
I am a Joan of Arc and smart enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to reign, destined to roam
Destined to reign, destined to roam
Destined to reign, destined to roam
if I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to
if I am hardened no fear of further abandonment
if I am famous then maybe i'll feel good in this skin
if I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect
i would throw a party still it would not come
i would bike run swim and still it would not come
i'd go travelling and still it would not come
I would starve myself and still it would not come
if I'm masculine I will be taken more seriously
if I take a break it would make me irresponsible
if i'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
if I need assistance then I must be incapable
i'd be filthy rich and still
it would not come
I would seduce them and still
it would not come
I would drink vodka and still
it would not come
i'd have an orgasm still
it wouldn't come
if I accumulate knowledge
i'll be inpenetrable
if I am aloof no one will know
when they strike a nerve
if I keep my mouth shut the boat
will not have to be rocked
if I am vulnerable I will be
trampled upon
i would go shopping and still
it would not come
i'd leave the country and still
it would not come
i would scream and rebel still
it would not come
i would stuff my face and still
it would not come
i'd be productive and still it would not come
i'd be celebrated still it would not come
i'd be the hero and still it would not come
In my old days someone won
Those were days of win-lose
In those beat times I was better
I set high but came down by a nose
Changed direction, looking up
I am not worthy to be with you
We are separate, I’m inferior
I have yearnings to sit across from you
‘Cause we’re eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Both directions speak alive
Upon now I can feel
As we down with our power
We are separate, not looking across
‘Cause we’re eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
These delusions of our grandeur
We are locked in the struggle
These lies of love status lower
These conclusions, we’re in trouble
‘Cause we’re eye to eye
We are win and win
We are equal to each other
We are same since we’re
We are lost in the truth
We are partners as two brothers
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you
Seems I love you (do I love you?)
Seems I love you
Seems I love you (do I love you?)
We said good-bye with so much left to say
We knew inside we'd find another way
We'll have it all, it's not too late to try
Maybe you and I could go from here
Maybe you and I can make it, this time we'll...
Fall in love when we meet again
We can finish what we started
Fall in love if we try again
And then nothing will keep us apart
We're not the same as when we first began
We'll try to change, we'll take another chance
Maybe you and I could work it out
Maybe you and I can make it, this time we'll
I see your face, it's always on my mind
A time and palace we almost left behind
If God had a name what would it be?
And would you call it to His face?
If you were faced with Him in all His glory
What would you ask if you had just one question?
Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
If God had a face
What would it look like?
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and Jesus and the Saints
And all the Prophets
Yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Just trying to make His way home
Back up to Heaven all alone
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome
Yeah, yeah God is great
Yeah, yeah God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
What if God was one of us?
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home
Like a holly Rolling Stone
Back up to Heaven all alone
Just trying to make His way home
Nobody callin' on the phone
Monday morning is not Monday morning till Taylor has his coffeeFriday night is not Friday night till Jessie leaves the room sweatyTuesday morning is not Tuesday morning till Nick has his talk with his sonThursday night is not Thursday night till Chris has sex with his bass
Come on to the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get highHold off till the weekendThere's too much timeI think they are really nice guys
Tuesday morning is Wednesday afternoon when you cry all nightWednesday early we fall into work all caught up in the day by dayThursday morning is not Thursday morning till Alanis says: "How's your life?How's your life? Hey, how's your life? How's your life?"
Come on to the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get byHold off till the weekend'Cause there's too much time to think and not much time to cryHold off till the weekend'Cause the weekend we'll be highHold off till the weekend'Cause there'll be no time but we'll get by
What if there were no more mother's boys?What if no one shared their humble experience?What if there were no consequences?What if there were no more arguments?Wouldn't that be a shame?Would that be impossible?And you would be bored'Cause you wouldn't want any other way...
Hold on till the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get byHold off till the weekend'Cause the man upstairs has the really nice skiesHold off till the weekend'Cause the weekend I'll get highHold off till the weekend'Cause we may look strange but we surely will get by
A downtown cafe Saturday evenin' and the
place is about to be closed I'm meeting my baby
yeah and order my hundreath cup of coffee today
My hands are shakin'
At half past seven I'm sittin here waitin' for
my boy all alone for too long It's after eleven
yeah I'm tired of waitin' and I'm gonna go home
cause I don't need this
You never think twice before you break all the rules
you gotta be crazy if you think I'm a fool
I'll walk away and say good bye
If you don't want me anymore
I've bot my pride
I'll walk away and say good bye
if I don't get the love we had before
not satisfied
He finally gets here I'm waitin' for him to ask me
why there's a frown on my face He orders a
cold beer he has an excuse about his car
breakin' down but I don't buy it
You're givin' me sometin' I don't need anymore
Just gimme the word and I'll be slammin' the door
His best intentians are never the same as what
he does of the end of the day. I'm feelin' the
tension yeah Don't gimme no reasons cause you
don't comprehend what am I feelin'
You never think twice before you break all the rules
You gotta be crazy if you think I'm a fool
You're givin' me somethin' I don't need anymore
Just gimme the word and I'll be slammin' the door
So tell me now Just say the word
It won't be long
It’s quiet simple when I’m listening
You keep leading me all the way home
These messages you’ve been offering
As a magical child
An essential child
It hinges on the driver’s seat
It depends on who’s in control
When i waver on the attuning
I kill a magical child
This essential child
To thine own self be true
To my core self be true
When direction is confounding
When vitality is far gone
When the spark is out, uninspiring
I call the magical child
The essential child
To thine own self be true
To my core self be true
When I’m lost and I’m unraveling
When I’m off my track and I float
When I need true north and some grounding
I call the magical child
The essential child
This angelic child
This innocent child
To thine own self be true
To my core self, be true
Angelic child
Innocent child
Magical child
we'd gather around, all in a room, fasten our belts, engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down, rest without guilt, not lie without fear, disagree sans judgement
we would stay, and respond, and expand, and include, and allow, and forgive, and
enjoy, and evolve, and discern, and inquire, and accept, and admit, and divulge, and
open, and reach out, and speak up
This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate
we'd open our arms, we'd all jump in, we'd all coast down, into safety nets
we would share, and listen, and support, and welcome, be propelled by passion, not
invest in outcomes, we would breathe, and be charmed, and amused by difference,
be gentle and make room for every emotion
This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate
we'd provide forums, we'd all speak out, we'd all be heard, we'd all feel seen,
we'd rise post-obstacle, more defined more grateful, we would heal, be humbled,
and be unstoppable, we'd hold close, and let go, and know when to do which, we'd
release, and disarm, and stand up, and feel safe
this is utopia this is my utopia
this is my ideal my end in sight
utopia this is my utopia
this is my nirvana
burn the books they've got too many names and psychosis
all this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me
if someone broke into my house
suits in the living room
do you realize guys I was born in 1974
we've got someone here to explain your publishing
we know how much you love to be in front of audiences
hopeful you are
schoolbound you are
naive you are
driven you are
take a trip to new york with your guardian
and your fake identification
when they said "is there something anything
you'd like to know young lady?"
you said "yes I'd like to know what kind of people
i'll be dealing with"
precocious you are
headstrong you are
terrified you are
ahead of your time you are
don't mind our staring but
we're surprised you're not in a far-gone asylum
we're surprised you didn't crack up
lord knows that we would've
we would've liked to have been there
but you keep pushing us away
resilient you are
big time you are
ruthless you are
dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship
with someone right now and I respect
that I would like you to know that if you're ever single
in the future and you want to come visit me in california
I would be open to spending time with you and finding
out how old you were when you wrote your first song
dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys
who would lie to me and think solely about themselves and you
were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say
the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's
your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
dear terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing
but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
and pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep
on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time you
were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what
was wrong with me
dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic way
about you with the women and you got me
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away
with kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out
for around you though and that stopped us from going any further
than we did and it's kinda too bad becasue we could've had much more fun
dear lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time
and I understand that as I do you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you
I had disengaged to avoid being totaled
I would run away and say good riddance, soon enough
I had grown disgusted by your small-minded ceiling
Imagine myself bolting had not been difficult
Soon be my life
Soon be my pace
Soon be my choice of which you'll have no part of
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
I hit the ground running, although I know not what toward
I hit the town feeling, forgetting all that came before
I felt primed and ready, once surrounded by the pawns
I felt culture shocked, but dissuaded, I was not
This is my town
This is my voice
This is my taste of which you've have no part of
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
One day I'll saddle back and speak of foreign adventures
One day I'll double back and tell you about these unfettered years
One day I'll look back and feel something other than relieved
Glad that I left when I did before, I know you, you can't get the best of me
When I'd speak of artistry you would roll your eyes skyward
When I'd speak of spirituality you would label it absurd
When I spoke of possibility you would frown and shake your head
If I had stayed much longer, I'd have surely imploded
These are my words
This is my house
These are my friends of which you've had no part
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
I'd invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed
Unprodigial daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
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