karaoke
A blob of deep red seeping from my arm.
So pretty.
Don't worry, I won't do any lasting harm.
I'm sensible.
The cuts get deeper as the days go by.
It doesn't hurt.
The more blood lost, the less tears cried.
I never cry now.
People are saying I'm going mad.
I'm not.
Maybe I am, is it normal to feel this bad?
Of course.
This time is really confusing me.
Don't panic.
You can't escape from it; there's nowhere to flee.
So fight it.
Scars spread ever closer to my wrist.
What's happening?
I know what to do, I can't miss.
No, don't.
Searing pain shooting up my spine.
Make it stop.
A dizzy head â- but I'm feeling fine.
Don't fall.
There's a lot of red on the floor.
Like a carpet.
I don't think I can stand up anymore.
Then sit.
Head spinning crazily, I can hear bells.
Getting quiet now.
Is this it? Am I freed from my living hell?
. . .
Get Around To Meditate On
Meditate On A Crucial Point
Death Goes On, On And On
Watch A Gonna Do About It?
Do You Wanna Look On At Industrial Smog
How It Cripples Your Little Dog
And Turn The Surface Of The Deep Blue Sea
Turn Into A Black Substance?
Sticky and Dead !
Holidays At Wreckage Hills Will
Spread Abroad Like Football and
Fresh Water-Ration-Privateer
Will Become Profession Of Your Son
Tryin' To Get The Best Of It
Fellow That Won't Do
Friend Make Haste Before You Feel
The Knife At Your Throat
Rusty And Cold
Suicide, Suicide
Seems To Be The Fate
What The Future Has In Store
I know I haven't been my sunny self these days
But that don't mean you have to go & hide the razor blades
So thank you for your good intention
But I don't need this intervention
Would you please just go away?
I'm not suicidal
I'm not in denial
I'm not not really feeling that bad (I'm not)
Just wait & we'll find out
Everything I whined about
Losing the illusions I have
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
Why don't we say
I'm goin' through a phase
And that I got a lot of stuff to reevaluate
But I am sure that my condition (I'm sure)
Well in through that can just listen (You just listen)
I'm asking you to go away
I'm not suicidal
I'm not in denial (I'm not in denial)
I'm not not really feeling that bad
Just wait & we'll find out
Everything I whined about
Losing the illusions I have
I'm just a little sad (I'm Just A little Sad)
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
(You're not really that bad)
I can't believe that you're
You're still standing here (what are you doing here?)
I shoulda locked the door
You shoulda disappeared
Too late (too late)
Just don't look at me that way
I'm not suicidal
I'm not in denial
I'm not really feeling that bad (Yeah)
Just wait & we'll find out
Everything I whined about
Losing the illusions I have
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
Hey there killer, where you goin'?
I see you got a gun and your anger is showing
What you about to do? Gonna kill her man?
I know that you are, but you don't really understand
You wanna be scary, wanna freak her out
Knock on her door, and put the gun in your own mouth
Let her try to stop you, it doesn't work
Turn so she can see you, and make the back of your head squirt!
Before you go and commit, a homicide!
Do us all a favor, you should try suicide!
If your gonna commit, a homicide
Spare us all the drama, you should try suicide!
Hey there killer, where you been?
Plotting out the murder on the perfect ten
Wanna make scary on her, I assume
Break in her house and hang yourself in her bedroom
Hey there killer, your unstoppable
Out of control and yo, she's irresistible
Go to her job and drink some gasoline
Swallow a match, and show her just what she means to ya!
Before you go and commit, a homicide!
Do us all a favor, you should try suicide!
If your gonna commit, a homicide
Spare us all the drama, you should try suicide!
Suicide
Before you go and commit, a homicide! (killer)
Do us all a favor, you should try suicide! (come on and try it)
If your gonna commit, a homicide (try it)
Spare us all the drama, you should try suicide! (suicide)
Before you go and commit, a homicide! (killer)
Do us all a favor, you should try suicide! (come on and try it)
If your gonna commit, a homicide (try it)
Spare us all the drama, you should try suicide! (suicide)
Please don't commit, a homicide! (killer)
Do us all a favor, you should try suicide! (come on and try it)
If your gonna commit, a homicide (try it)
I never meant for you to leave and go far away
And I hate that I caused you so much pain
I'm hurting now
Everywhere I go, I'm facing dark clouds
Barely holding on, I'm fading out
I pushed love far away
It has traveled further than I can go
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience and I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone
I've committed suicide
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
Committed suicide (whoo-oh)
I just jumped off a bridge and lost the better half of me
Turned my back on love
And I feel like a bird without a wing (who-ooh)
Oh I'm hurting now
Wish I could go back and slow time down
I would turn that frown into a smile
I wish I could show you how much I've changed
I'd do anything to get it back
Committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience and I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone
I've committed suicide
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
Committed suicide (whoo-oh)
I regret the day she left me behind
Why did I waste our precious time
How can I betray the gift that god has given to me (oh no)
Committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience and I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone
I've committed suicide
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic... (whoo-oh)
Committed suicide (whoo-oh)
I regret the day she left me behind
Why did I waste our precious time
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Suicide
Slip 'n' slide
Your eyes are wide
Tongue-tied
You slip 'n' slide
Shut tight
Slip 'n' slide
Read the line
The underlined
Slow down
Ease your mind
Time to find
Another ride
Another ride
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Suicide
Look right
Slip 'n' slide
Time flies
You slip 'n' slide
Leave now
Be left behind
Time to find
Another ride
Slow down
Ease your mind
Time to find
Another ride
Another ride
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Suicide
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
Drop that rhythm and you unwind
Keep that feeling and you step in time
All too pretty for a real life
Suicide
The night is mine, it burns so black
And there will be no morning light
The human race's foul disease
Will keep the morning from our sight
Why can't we say the secret word?
Respect for nothing, fire or flood
Expect no quarter, no reprieve
We writhe and grin in our own blood
No sun just clouds and poison rain
Raped and freezing, victims of the dream again
Truly our days are darker now
We lie and cheat to our own selves
If we do this, I ask you how
Can we speak truth to someone else?
There is no way, no road at all
We are destroyed by our own plan
The air we breathe will kill us all
And no one left to give a damn
No sun just clouds and poison rain
Raped and freezing, victims of the dream again
Stay clean, be true, do whatever you can do
Make it soon or we all die
Ten thousand years and all we got is suicide
If there be Gods, then tell me why
They make us kill and kill again?
One hundred thousand thousand years
No mercy in the minds of men
What is the word that we should read?
What incantation should we say?
How can we ask for justice now
When all the world is blown away?
No sun, no hope the world is run insane
Raped and freezing, victims of the dream again
Stay clean, be true, do whatever you can do
Make it soon or we all die
[instrumental : performed by N.T.]
By David Allan Coe
STANDING IN THE BATHROOM WITH A GUN IN MY HAND
PULLING ON THE TRIGGER JUST AS FAST AS I CAN
I CAN HEAR HER SCREAM AS SHE REACHES FOR THE LOVER BESIDE HER
MARRIED BY THE BIBLE SHE WAS ONLY SIXTEEN
I WAS FRESH FROM PRISON TRYING TO FOLLOW MY DREAM
WHO'D EVER THOUGHT ID BE THE JUDGE AND THE JURY THAT TRIED HER?
BLOOD SPLATTERED ALL OVER THE WALL
THE GUN STILL SMOKING AS I WATCH IT FALL
I RUN THROUGH THE DOOR WHILE THE SIRENS BLOW OUT ON THE HIGHWAY
MAYBE THEY'LL CATCH ME AND MAYBE THEY WONT
IT REALLY DOESN'T MATTER I JUST HAD TO DO THINGS MY WAY
YEAH YEAH
I MIGHT JUST COMMIT SUICIDE
YEAH YEAH
HE'S THE ONLY MAN THAT I TRUSTED WITH MY LIFE
I CANT UNDERSTAND WHY HE RAN OFF WITH MY WIFE
NOW THAT THEY'RE DEAD WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TO THE BABY?
THE STATE WILL HAVE TO RAISE HER JUST THE WAY THEY DID ME
HER MOTHER WANTED FREEDOM AND I JUST SET HER FREE
SHE SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET ME SEE THAT SHE WAS NO LONGER A LADY
SHE CALLED OUT MY NAME JUST BEFORE SHE DIED
SHE SWORE SHE LOVED ME AND I ALMOST CRIED
WITH TREMBLING HANDS I REACHED OUT AND TRIED TO SAVE HER
CHEATING IS SOMETHING I CAN UNDERSTAND
BUT NOT WHEN ITS CHEATING WITH MY BEST FRIEND
SHE BETRAYED THE LOVE AND THE BABY I GAVE HER
Sinking I am sinking
Falling I am falling
Drowning I am drowning
Floating in mid air
It's just dragging me down
Faster always faster
There is no way out
There is no way out
No way out
I'm caught in this world pool
Spinning I am spinning
I have seen it all
I have seen it all
Seen it all
From: In The Shadow Of The Angel
Dream little girl
On lonely street
Little runaway girl
Do it again
Do it again
Your boyfriend's mean
And your mom's a bitch
Little runaway girl
Do it again
Do it again
Run run run away little girl
Get your fun in this trashy world
Empty-hearted boys by your side
Lick your lips and fuck suicide
Suicide
No tonight
Suicide
No tonight
You're ripe for love
New York's the shit
Little runaway girl
Do it again
Do it again
On the Brooklyn Bridge
You fix your stare
The East River sleeps
Do it again
Do it again
Do it again
Do it again
Run run run away little girl
Get your fun in this trashy world
Empty-hearted boys by your side
Lick your lips and fuck suicide
Suicide
No tonight
Suicide
No tonight
Run run run away little girl
Get your fun in this trashy world
Empty-hearted boys by your side
Lick your lips and fuck suicide
Suicide
No tonight
Suicide
I've been stumblin' through my years
All I had was sweat and tears
When I thought I had it made
I was always much too late
And throughout my whole life I've done everything wrong
Chorus:
No way out - suicide
No way out - suicide
I am loosing all I get
For myself there's just regret
And my brain, it feels so ill
Am I waiting for the kill?
What the hell's there on earth that cold keep me alive?
Chorus
There's a shadow on my back
I've been taking the wrong track
Now I've gone a bit too far
I've begun a private war
All I hate is myself but I've shot someone else
Everybody thinks I'm going crazy
'Cause I don't even sleep
They say I'm lookin weak
But everything they say is true
Girl I can't make it without you
And I don't know which way to go
Up or down, fast or slow
So I think it's time for me to go away
And I know it sounds crazy
But your not my lady anymore
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide (oh)
Until you took your love away (way)
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride (lose my pride)
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away (love away)
If I die I know I'd still look over you
Lovin you, forever and forever, no need to
Heaven is not that far away
Heaven is not to far away
I can still see your precious face
Said I might have been a fool, think this way would make you gladder
When I look down on you I can see I made you sad
It's too late for me to change it
Only God can explain it
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride (I never thought)
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away (til you took my love away)
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
(yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah)
Until you took your love away
I never thought that I would feel this way
(never thought I'd feel this way, never never never never)
I never thought anyone could turn my sun away (oh, oh, oh)
Until I fell in love with you
(I fell in love with you baby)
How could you leave me all so smooth
Knowing girl that I'd never have you
I never thought
I never thought (never thoguht)
I'd lose my pride (I would lose my pride)
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away (oh, oh, oh)
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away(way)
I never thought (my baby)
I never thought
I'd lose my pride (I'd lose my pride)
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide(I never thought)
Until you took your love away
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away
I woke up to a feeling, it was cold by my side
You had gone with the sunrise, leaving tears in my eyes
I got up with a feeling of an emptiness inside
To the noise of the sidewalk and the silence of my mind
Well I walked out this morning, down a street with no name
To a club called "The Loser", like a dog that's gone lame
Took the club elevator to the floor with a view
I took out life subscription - it's the only one they do
I stepped out on the guard rail, saw the crowds slowly part
Heard a voice shouting "Don't jump, please for God's sake let me move my car!"
Felt a hand on my shoulder, heard a voice cry "Just in time!"
Felt the quick push, felt the air rush
Have you ever thought about committing suicide?
Leaving the world behind?
The sorrow, the pain and the fear
of the unknown future
Delivering from any human needs and pressure
in just one second
Your cry for help is lost in this lonely world
in which you are completely alone
Nobody helps you when you're feeling down
and the loneliness is breaking your heart
It would be so simple to go down
the stairs of the final way
But the fear of the unknown world beyond,
of having nothing, of being nothing
Keeps you on your designated way
and takes away your longing for self-destruction
That is why
I woke up to a feeling, it was cold by my side
You had gone with the sunrise, leaving tears in my eyes
I got up with a feeling of an emptiness inside
To the noise of the sidewalk and the silence of my mind
Well I walked out this morning, down a street with no name
To a club called ";The Loser";, like a dog that's gone lame
Took the club elevator to the floor with a view
I took out life subscription - it's the only one they do
I stepped out on the guard rail, saw the crowds slowly part
Heard a voice shouting ";Don't jump, please for God's sake let me move my car!";
Felt a hand on my shoulder, heard a voice cry ";Just in time!";
Felt the quick push, felt the air rush
Felt the sidewalk, fell in line
suicide suicide
suicide suicide
homicide homicide
homicide homicide
runnin outta time losin my mind
hate this place feel like diein
brains steady flyin all over the place
dont wanna live written on my face
gotta get up outta here gotta go
yes i know where im gonna go
hot ice cold where they take souls
satan rule the land been a long road
i bet you wonder why im sayin these things
lost my job got no change
car got stolen bills backin up
kids hungry and im startin to feel the pain
tired of the world tired of groupie girls
brains startin to scream thoughts in this world
if i have to face another hater ima pull out the motherfuckin Mossberg pump
to your dome yea da boy gone
off of the map cap been blown
how ya like me now hatin asshole?
my lifes fucked thats fo sho
if you wanna know yes i tell ya
how it goes yes i tell ya
but you gotta stay tuned to the zone
too hear what happened to the big failure
its the last straw for me to fall
i cant sleep cant see at all
done smoke a pound drank a pint of syrup
mixed 30 rolls with tylonal
bout to fly away out this bitch
have dreams but i cant get rich
too many problems in my life now to be worried bout stackin chips
moms sick as fuck dad goin crazy girlfriend sayin we havin another baby
i cant afford the 2 that i got but you know i love them 2 little ladies
thats why it hurt to say goodbye
i cant save it dont know why
people say well you have to try
let the mothersuckers live this lie
popped a hundred pills eyes are closed
heart is pumpin body gettin cold
no cell phone noone knows where im at thats what i want
breathin gettin hard death gettin close
creepin up on the devils back bone
times ran out so has my liquor
[Scarface]
I took my chances, but I did my dirt
And my adivce to any nigga if you crime, then you do the works
Its givin up and step the fuck back
Cuz in this game you can fame
You gotta start dumpin these niggas off your nut-sack
Im just a nigga out the hood tryna have thangs
When I got up on my feet and screamed the brand change
And your excuse was that the money did came
My excuse was that you was to blame
Simple ??, got to show my homies love tho
I just don't fuck around with niggas that I don't know
And you can take that how you wanna take it
Im from these motherfuckin streets,
and the same rules apply in this game
you never break it
With my motherfucking luck, fallin over the craps
And you niggas who wanna try to attack
We steady dyin over dumb shit, And me im steady losin my sleep
Cuz niggas aint familiar with the rules of the street, and its a
[Chorus]
Suicide, its a Suicide
Suicide, its a Suicide
its a, Suicide, its a Suicide
Suicide, its a Suicide
[Scarface]
To my niggas on the street cryin then (watch them haters)
If im sittin on the side-line (get your paper)
Too many niggas complaining pointin fingers at the problem
Thats why I hate my baby momma
im just a nigga from the very bottom
skippin classes, throwin 8-balls into white powder
tryna get it, while the motherfuckers gettin good
wit possibilities of gettin out my neighborhood
don't get me wrong, I had them dreams too
But the only thing you do, is get your cream too
Get your motherfucking cream fool
Niggas aint know about the Ange and the Alicks
First you get in, then you get out, you stuck in this game
[Chorus x3]
[Scarface]
Now when its over don't nobody cry
Just enjoy while you live life, cuz everybody got to die
When you see me i'll be hella high, beatin corners wit my top down
Checkin out the chasers in the sky, Shootin paper clips at Jupiter
The more I lie, its like im gettin stupider and stupider
Tryna make the best, out of a fucked up desicion
Im just a nigga with a vision, which is to get up, get out
Gettin my props, tryna stay away from these bitches that jock dick
And move enough to move on, gotta stay true to it
Thats just the way you gotta do it
And these niggas here is really, dazed and don't give a fuck when you for real
And you like it rough, nigga what, the fuck
Know what im sayin is real, now back the fuck up for you get killed
Cuz its a..
[Chorus x3]
Suicide
The paper called it suicide
A bullet from a forty-five
Nobody cared and nobody cried
Don't that make you feel sad?
Peter Brent combed his hair and sent
For the police
Policeman came took Peter's name
God may he rest in peace
No one saw the note beside the body
Nobody knew the problem but my God
Suicide
Yeah Mama
The body remains unidentified
Forgotten in a file
Like the letter that was blown aside
Don't that make you wanna smile?
Ya ya ya ya
Ya ya ya ya
Awhile
Smile a little while
For the suicide
Comin' up
No one was really satisfied
About number eighty one
The autopsy proved that Peter lied
But they never found the gun
No one saw the note beside the body
Nobody knew the problem but my God
Suicide
The paper called it suicide
A bullet from a forty-five
Nobody cared and nobody cried
Don't that make you wanna pucker?
{I'm Jones the one when you drive there
This is his solo miya
I took the pills that made me fast to speed my brain future is past
Rapid pulsations upon my heart pulsing my blood from part to part
Chorus:
Suicide I'm still living suicide I'm still giving
To suicide I bring the gas to suicide I give my ass
Open the can I huff the fume ah, to me it is perfume
Chorus
To suicide I swear an oath the human race I do loathe
Now I drive reckless speed with suicide I take the lead
Chorus
I wish I had never been born my own past hear me mourn
Arm in arm I walk with death crazed words on my last breath
Chorus
The spirit was freedom and justice
And it's keepers seem generous and kind
It's leaders were supposed to serve the country
But now they won't pay it no mind
'Cause the people grew fat and got lazy
And now their vote is a meaningless joke
They babble about law and order
But it's all just an echo of what they've been told
Yeah, there's a monster on the loose
It's got our heads into a noose
And it just sits there watchin'
Our cities have turned into jungles
And corruption is stranglin' the land
The police force is watching the people
And the people just can't understand
We don't know how to mind our own business
'Cause the whole worlds got to be just like us
Now we are fighting a war over there
No matter who's the winner
We can't pay the cost
'Cause there's a monster on the loose
It's got our heads into a noose
And it just sits there watching
[1998: This song is the first version of 'Chop Suey']
Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup (hide the scars to fade away the)
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go, create another fable
You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
You wanted to
I don't think you trust
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
Hide the scars to fade away the (hide the scars to fade away the shakeup)
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go, create another fable
You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
You wanted to
I don't think you trust
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
Father (Father), Father (Father), Father (Father), Father (Father)
Father into your hands, I commend my spirit
Father, into your hands
Why have you forsaken me
In your eyes, forsaken me
In your thoughts, forsaken me
In your heart, forsaken me, oh
Trust in my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
In my self-righteous suicide
Why cry when angels deserve to die?
Manic depression, your mind's a blank
Ready and waiting to die
No future, your life's a waste
Which method of suicide to try?
Hanging is quick and easy
No mess and no blood to see
Slashed wrists, no reverse
Which way will it be?
[Chorus:]
Suicide, you'll take your life
Death comes so quick
Suicide, you're on your own
With your life you are sick
Drowning takes its time
You might try to survive
Gassing, slow and cold
Sickness before you die
O.D., slow torment
Torture and pain will increase
Injection, instant death
A second and you are deceased
[Chorus]
You've chosen injection
Needle pierces the skin
Venom flows, it's now too late
A voice screams out from within
A wasted life, a wasted brain
Diseased cells called for the kill
You're on your way to Hell's black gate
Suicide beats life's will
[Repeat first verse]
Blood
It Flows
Free Now
Wrist
Now Slashed
No Pain
Tears
And Blood
Flow Free
Kill
Myself
Bleed Now
See The End Before Your Eyes
Now Its Time To Say Goodbye
Leave This World Alone Today
Time To Slowly Fade Away
My Body Is Now Ice Cold
My Secrets Are Now Untold
Fear This Life I Do No More
Laying In My Bloody Gore
Realize
Suicide
Realize
Suicide
Would
You Care
If Death
My God
Tonight
Dark
Over Comes
The Light
Death
Will Set
Me Free
Sickness of My Thoughts Alive
As I Lay and Watch You Cry
What Could You Have Done For Me
Never Know Now Leave Me Be
Greif Now Over Comes Your Soul
Left Here Now To Live Alone
My Sick Thoughts Now Fill Your Mind
Life Had Never Been So Kind
Realize
Suicide
Realize
Suicide
Looking at My Bloody Blade
Tears Start Flowing Like The Rain
Come Now Join Me Feel Alive
Time For Someone Else to Cry
Your Blood is Now Red With Mine
Laying in Our Bloody Grime
Take Your Last Breath You Will See
Life is Good to Be With Me
Realize
Suicide
Realize
Is this just a preparation
For what is soon to come?
Another life might be waiting
For me to enter the tomb
I am not the only one
I am dying to find out
I want my life to rest
Solution suicide
I am not the only one
I am dying to find out
I want my life to rest
Solution suicide
This life is filled with ignorance
We are all born to die
No one knows what is to come
No one can see beyond life and time
Enter the realm of death
Sacrifice your life
To fill the emptiness
With knowledge from the other side
I am not the only one
I am dying to find out
I want my life to rest
Solution suicide
I am not the only one
I am dying to find out
I want my life to rest
Oh Lady,Since you walked out of my life
It feels like the world is just caving in on me
Damn, I cant live in these four walls all alone
And you know how much I love you
And how much I wanna hold you
How could you do this to me
Girl since you closed the door in my face
Its been like a dark hall that has no end
I'm looking at this bottle
Gonna drink it till its gone
You might as well say this is the end
Dont know what I'm gonna do
I don't know what I'm gone do without you baby
I don't know how I'm gone live without you lady
My life just ain't nothin without you by my side
It feels like suicide
Feels like I'm on a plane ride
Facing its final hour
I'm goin blind and I cant see
In front of the judge facing the death penalty
Lock and throw away the key
Cant you see
I cant think, I cant sleep, I cant eat, feel so weak
I need you to rescue me
Take me from this misery
I don't know what I'm gone do without you baby
I don't know how I'm gone live without you lady
My life just ain't nothin without you by my side
It feels like suicide
It wont be long before I go down
I need you girl to come around
I don't know how long it will be
Wont somebody come see about me
Im on my knees praying to you
Gonna do something that I should not do
I just cant take this pain
I don't know what I'm gone do without you baby
I don't know how I'm gone live without you lady
My life just ain't nothin without you by my side
It feels like suicide
I don't know what I'm gone do without you baby
I don't know how I'm gone live without you lady
My life just ain't nothin without you by my side
It feels like suicide
b-side of Love Song 7" on Chiswick/Big Beat Records
(Vanian/Scabies/Sensible/Ward)
There's too much confusion for a young man to take
Look at my eyes that ain't easy to fake
I've got no spirit left to break
I'll slash my wrists ain't no mistake
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
I've lost track of logical thinking
I'm sitting in a room not even blinking
Into the darkness I am sinking
About to hear the angels singing
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
My mind's going round faster and faster
The scripts been read and there's no disaster
I was in with a chance but I'm a bastard
I'm lying awake in a hospital plaster
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
Why is your face down, left stuck in the ground?
'Cause somebody chose not to love you,
Does that make me worthless when they turn away?
They couldn't see how much that I love them,
It's not your fault that they couldn't see,
How much that you are worth,
I'll lay you down,
Lift your hands,
You've got a reason to live,
This is not your time,
Even though it's dark now (the sun will shine again),
This will pass in time,
And I won't forget you,
I caught you in my hand,
In my hand,
Why do you cry, cry all night?
Since when are things that you wanted,
Things that you needed?
When I have given you everything,
Every part of me,
I'll lay you down,
Lift your hands,
You've got a reason to live,
This is not your time,
Even though it's dark now (the sun will shine again),
This will pass in time,
And I won't forget you,
I caught you in my hand,
You've got a reason to live,
This is not your time,
Even though it's dark now (the sun will shine again),
This will pass in time,
And I won't forget you,
I caught you in my hand,
From a Bridge, from a roof, for a train
From a boat, for a truck, out a plane
In your bed, in your room, under a tree
In a lake, in a bath, into sea
By a sword, by a rope or gasoline
By a knife, by a raiser or machine
[Chorus]
Suicide is in the air I can commit it everywhere
Leave this world that is totally rotten
Make sure I've nothing forgotten
I will leave a note behind
Maybe someone will remind
I'm down, depressed and I'm feeling alone
This pain inside hurts me till the bone
I'm scared to die, I wanna life forever
Asking questions but find the answer never
Behind the doors of death is no return
My soul is gone, my body will burn
I just like to sit and cry all day long
But I have work to do because now I'm young
Suicide, I think it's no alternative
Because I've a dream, a dream for which I live
But dreams can be broken or may not come true
Desperate
We celebrate
The life and death
We incarnate
The sins that we repent
Celebrate
The desperate
The life and death
They incarnate
Creatures of the lost
Suicide
Suicide
Desperate
We celebrate
The life and death
We incarnate
Everybody thinks I'm going crazy
'Cause I don't even sleep
They say I'm lookin weak
But everything they say is true
Girl I can't make it without you
And I don't know which way to go
Up or down, fast or slow
So I think it's time for me to go away
And I know it sounds crazy
But your not my lady anymore
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide (oh)
Until you took your love away (way)
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride (lose my pride)
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away (love away)
If I die I know I'd still look over you
Lovin you, forever and forever, no need to
Heaven is not that far away
Heaven is not to far away
I can still see your precious face
Said I might have been a fool, think this way would make you gladder
When I look down on you I can see I made you sad
It's too late for me to change it
Only God can explain it
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride (I never thought)
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away (til you took my love away)
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
(yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah)
Until you took your love away
I never thought that I would feel this way
(never thought I'd feel this way, never never never never)
I never thought anyone could turn my sun away (oh, oh, oh)
Until I fell in love with you
(I fell in love with you baby)
How could you leave me all so smooth
Knowing girl that I'd never have you
I never thought
I never thought (never thoguht)
I'd lose my pride (I would lose my pride)
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away (oh, oh, oh)
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
Until you took your love away(way)
I never thought (my baby)
I never thought
I'd lose my pride (I'd lose my pride)
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide(I never thought)
Until you took your love away
I never thought
I never thought
I'd lose my pride
I'd lose my pride
I never thought of suicide
As my bones creak and my veins scream
While my spirit breaks I hear you calling me
As my heart aches and my hands shake
While my mind fades from these dark days
In the valley where I come from
everybody watches the blood run
No one will lend you a knife or a gun
But they'll cut your wrists
and hang you by the neck
I like your suicide
You show up in the middle of the night
Blood drippin from your wrists
Pills on your tongue and a gun in your hand
A rope around your neck
I hope god is your friend
A lot of niggaz talkin reckless
But if you wasn't from the hood you wouldn't understand what it is
Y'knahmsayin? We gon' clear it up right now
A lot of reckless talk out there
I'ma let y'all know my Family in tact
My whole Family in tact
My First Family in tact... for life (Marxmen!)
[Teflon]
Yo! You ever look into the eyes of the Grim Reaper?
Watch a man die when the shots fly and the shit heat up?
You in deep but, it's too late to back out
And now it's like your whole life is under a black cloud
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
And you always swore before you wasn't scared to die
But take a look in your eyes, and see the fear in 'em
You know them niggaz comin they came here to get him
And they ain't playin with him, they aim and spittin
Give him a closed casket, they plain sicker than Ol' Bastard
If only he can go backwards, to the days
and change when he used to throw those ratchets in nigga's face
Stole packages, from nigga's place of business
When they was tryin to make a livin, they ain't forgive him
And niggaz stay forgettin, so as soon as he came home
from state prison niggaz came and hit him
[Chorus]
(Suicide, it's a suicide)
When you don't know who to try cause, even you could die cause
(Suicide, it's a suicide)
Gotta rely on your wits, can't get caught up in the mix kid
(Suicide) Right or left, choose a side
Life or death, you might be the next dude to die (Marxmen, Marxmen)
What's your next step? I'll let you decide
(Suicide... Marxmen)
[Teflon]
Yo, it was a chick named Dawn, she used to get it on
Honey had niggaz slippin money up in her thong
At the strip club givin dubs, 20 a song
And if the price was right she might come with him home
She was fuckin one of the customers, Asam Allah
Dude was a fool, used to walk with her under the arm
Used to take her to Jamaica, lay with her under the palm
Treat her like a queen, really all he was was a pawn
She only seen him as John, he ain't mean nothin to her
She was just leadin him on, he just feedin into the con
All along, and he felt that that was real and nobody could try it
She came home and gave homes the virus
She got nice, can't turn a ho to a housewife
And he stabbin it raw dog, gamblin without dice
Now he ready to snuff out her life
Cause the AIDS results back, they ain't come out right
[Chorus]
[Teflon]
They used to meet up every night, at the gamblin spot
After all the block business was finished of scramblin rock
They'll meet up at the spot, get a couple of drinks
All the fly cars in Bronx pullin up in they mix
Lock the door, buy the bar out, this is our house
Everybody's laughin, there's cash in large amounts
They tappin glasses, toutin it's a family thing
Catch a case won't nobody in the family sing
That's what they think, all along they all was wrong
It was a dude with a device strapped to him recordin
every convo that they had, where they sellin, where they scorin
Dude got knocked before but said he got off with a warnin
And they ain't get the message 'til the next mornin
When detectives stormed in the door, arrest 'em and took 'em all in
Now what they wanna know is who put the call in
Toss him off the bridge and turn his kids to orphans
Hey whatcha' say,
An empty day
Won't you be brave
You're everywhere
Oh you disappeared though
A grave mistake
For Heaven's sake
Ya did it all for Jesus
Did ya think it all would please us?
If you step outside
I'll warn you from your suicide
This pain in your eyes (?? pain in your ass?? heh)
Don't do anything
Just pray for something better
There's always something better
Oooooh, take you home
Hear me
Trespassing
Hey, whatcha say (what you say)
Do ya think you could stay (it's a beautiful day)
Did you do it all for Jesus?
Did ya think it all would please us?
If you step outside
I'll warn you from your suicide
This pain in your eyes (??)
Don't do anything
Just pray for something better
There's always something better
Well I can feel it inside
You got charm (??) and we both know why
Don't turn your back to the sun,
Cause baby babe your gonna burn
My baby's gonna burn down yeah
She tried to tell me... you know
Its kinda weird she's got her mom's...
Thinking back i don't know if it was the right thing to do,
But...
It wasn't enough to hold her hand
It's freaked up ??
If you step outside
I'll warm you from your suicide
This pain in your eyes (??)
Don't do anything
Just pray for something better
There's always something better
Take you on ...
I can feel it inside
You've got time to make up your mind
Turn your back to the sun
I took my chances, but I did my dirt
And my adivce to any nigga if you crime, then you do the works
Its givin up and step the fuck back
Cuz in this game you can fame
You gotta start dumpin these niggas off your nut-sack
Im just a nigga out the hood tryna have thangs
When I got up on my feet and screamed the brand change
And your excuse was that the money did came
My excuse was that you was to blame
Simple ??, got to show my homies love tho
I just don't fuck around with niggas that I don't know
And you can take that how you wanna take it
Im from these motherfuckin streets,
and the same rules apply in this game
you never break it
With my motherfucking luck, fallin over the craps
And you niggas who wanna try to attack
We steady dyin over dumb shit, And me im steady losin my sleep
Cuz niggas aint familiar with the rules of the street, and its a
Suicide, its a Suicide
Suicide, its a Suicide
its a, Suicide, its a Suicide
Suicide, its a Suicide
To my niggas on the street cryin then (watch them haters)
If im sittin on the side-line (get your paper)
Too many niggas complaining pointin fingers at the problem
Thats why I hate my baby momma
im just a nigga from the very bottom
skippin classes, throwin 8-balls into white powder
tryna get it, while the motherfuckers gettin good
wit possibilities of gettin out my neighborhood
don't get me wrong, I had them dreams too
But the only thing you do, is get your cream too
Get your motherfucking cream fool
Niggas aint know about the Ange and the Alicks
First you get in, then you get out, you stuck in this game
Now when its over don't nobody cry
Just enjoy while you live life, cuz everybody got to die
When you see me i'll be hella high, beatin corners wit my top down
Checkin out the chasers in the sky, Shootin paper clips at Jupiter
The more I lie, its like im gettin stupider and stupider
Tryna make the best, out of a fucked up desicion
Im just a nigga with a vision, which is to get up, get out
Gettin my props, tryna stay away from these bitches that jock dick
And move enough to move on, gotta stay true to it
Thats just the way you gotta do it
And these niggas here is really, dazed and don't give a fuck when you for real
And you like it rough, nigga what, the fuck
Know what im sayin is real, now back the fuck up for you get killed
Cuz its a..
The world keeps spinnin, with or without me
And I know, that's hard to believe
And now I'm in a box, with nothin around me
Cuz I found a girl that'll get on her knees (at ease)
And all the while I'm knowin that my homies will clown me
Cuz I fucked her and didn't have a rubber on me
It seems I had to find out the hard way
That the girl that I found in the ground, she had HIV
Now she next to me like
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 million ways, to leave this whole wide world so cold
Stuck on my ass I been drinkin for days
And I got the nerve to put that Bonneville on the road
Got that thang on me and a couple kilos
A bag of ecstasy and a pound of that dro (whoa)
But I guess I had to find out the hard way
Cuz I done came to the end of the road
Now I'm in the mirror like
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala
Lalala lala la lalala
- I say the easiest thing in the world
Is to love you
And the hardest thing in the world
Is to lose you
Said I tried and tried again to keep you
But it just ain't no use
I'm baffled cuz of what went down
See I got your letter so you're leaving town
Just take one minute to think about
Baby, lets back track on what happened in this house
Now I remember clearly it was a Saturday
I came walkin' in four o'clock in the morning
And I thought you were sleepin' one eye opened
You turned and said to me where the hell you been
Then I turned it around and hollared with some friends drinking
And now I'm sitting here all alone
Wishing you were here to house this home, oh
Say the easiest thing in the world is to love you
I love you baby
And the hardest thing in the world (So hard)
Is to lose you (Is to lose you baby)
- Now I'm sitting here sippin' on things
I'm not suppose to (Sittin right here)
And that ain't cool (You know that ain't cool)
I've got to get over losing you
Shattered I can't believe you're gone
I'm left in the middle of these four walls
Lying helpless 'bout to lose my mind baby
I can't fathom life without you by my side
Now every night before I go to sleep
I pray to heaven for a better me
Nights I'm up thinkin' and days I'm up dreamin'
You were at work I was at play
A nigga wanted you and plus his cake
I know I ain't got no right to say
But I need you to head on back this way
Because I'm sitting here all alone
Wishing you were here to house this home
Baby can't we just moan for love like we used to
See, sometimes we men, we can dish it out
But sometimes we men, we can't take it, hey
So I'm gonna get up out this chair
And catch me a train, and get where you are, hey
Because I love you babe
And i need you
Right here by my side
Ghetto woman come on home to me
All alone, driving down that road
i think im going crazy and my minds about to blow
staring at the sky, makes me think of suicide
well suicide, like a bullet between the eyes
killing time ( killing time) losing my mind ( losing my
mind )
baby dont you know that this aint no crime
staring at the sky, makes me think of suicide
well suicide, like a bullet between the eyes
they wouldnt know, they wouldnt show
oh i can hear them laughing as they finally hit the road
i cant explain, its in my brain
they wouldnt know, they wouldnt show
oh i can hear them laughing as they finally hit the road
i cant explain, its in my brain
yes im gone (yes im gone) ill never survive (ill never
survive)
saw hearses on its way its gunna take me for a ride
staring at the sky, makes me think of suicide
Don't dare me dude, I'll do it dude
I'll mix these drinks into a suicide
a suicide? a suicide!
I'll mix those drinks into a suicide
how am I supposed to choose??
I'll just end up confused
I'm so through with it
I think I will commit a suicide
don't dare me dude, I'll do it dude
you cannot make me decide
I refuse to have to choose, I'll mix these drinks into a
All the pictures in my head
Make me fall in the dark tunnel
Like a carroussel, carroussel
When someone is laying cold
In the grave while everyone else
They are smiling around me
It drives me crazy
So fucking crazy
Suicide
It must be heaven to me
Suicide
Let me fall into your relief
I'm not good for any at all
Broke the mirror on the wall
Cut myself to feel alright
I smear my own blood in the face
Watch the big disgrace
Covered with my own pain
It drives me crazy
So fucking crazy
Suicide
It must be heaven to me
Suicide
Let me fall into your relief
My wings embrace the sky
Demons are the only thing
Left behind with a grin
Demon takes the angel's breath
To an end in silence
The angel cries tears in blood
As they disappear into the sky
It drives me crazy
So fucking crazy
Suicide
It must be heaven to me
Suicide
[Intro: Vinnie Paz]
Yeah, Vinnie Paz, baby, they call me Louie Dogs
Jedi Mind Tricks, Philly, Italiano mobbin' on you
[Verse 1: Vinnie Paz]
This is murder rap, I'll burn his back and push your sternum back
And have the doctor cover your head just like a turban wrap
A certain fact, you'll be prayin' on a Persian mat
Or hopin' Jesus or the police's bring the person back
I'm not the type of mutha fucka that's concerned with that
I only been in love once, then I learned from that
A ride or die bitch, said she'd never turn her back
Take these bullets with you to Hell, you dirty rat
Speakin' to me sideways, you get hurt for that
You gonna make me bring the Hologramic verses back
I'll put my fist into the ground, that's where the earth is cracked
Love is gone inside my heart, now it's a purplish black
You a clown rapper, just a circus act
But Vinnie rap like when fifty fuckin' Kurds attack
Who your group, daddy? I ain't never heard of that
Vinnie Paz, Hologram, where the purple at, fuckin' maggots, yeah
[Hook: Vinnie Paz w/KRS-One sample]
We gonna ride 'til the wheels fall off
It's a Suicide if you feel we soft
We the truth inside, if you feel you lost
And the truth don't lie, 'cause we still the boss
We gonna ride 'til the wheels fall off
It's a Suicide if you feel we soft
We the truth inside, if you feel you lost
And the truth don't lie, 'cause we still the boss
[Verse 2: Vinnie Paz]
Yeah, the heavy metal king, my lyrical an incredible thing
And I'm the forces in the four-chord pendulum swing
And anyway you wanna look at it, I send pain
And now they got you in the third density end game
That's why these men came, we rap saviors
Who tryin' to waken you from your spiritual laziness
I'm thinkin' outside the box from now on
Like different ways that I can kill the cop from now on
During day is when I used to sell boom to the tenants
And at night with dark shinin' and hallucinogenics
That's when I let the fight in me pass through
And when I let the spiritual light in me pass through
I guess this just somethin' that come when you grown
Like the positive and negative that come with the throne
But, fuck it, I'm stone, Pazienza the great wall
I'll be back, but now I'm drinkin' my 8 Ball
[Hook: Vinnie Paz w/KRS-One sample]
We gonna ride 'til the wheels fall off
It's a Suicide if you feel we soft
We the truth inside, if you feel you lost
And the truth don't lie, 'cause we still the boss
We gonna ride 'til the wheels fall off
It's a..."Suicide is a Suicide"
[Verse 3: Vinnie Paz]
Yeah, I'm a new disease, drinkin' a 40, rockin' Judas Priest
I'm strong as ?, put you in your blueish fleece
You never see a pig around me like a Jewish feast
And every single fuckin' member in my crew a beast
But y'all should know by now the type of shit I'm on
Like, does the New Testament contradict the Qu'ran?
Does every Muslim in the world come equipped with a bomb?
Does every rap video have a chick in a thong?
I don't know if we livin' no more
I don't know if Pazienza even driven no more
Uppercut, right cross on the tip of the jaw
He a crumb, daddy, dump a fuckin' clip in the boy
And the man is the offspring of the weak
Like the lamb is the offspring of the sheep
We gonna grind 'til we seein' the fame
With a stronghold baby, 'cause I'm bleedin' the game
[Outro: Vinnie Paz w/KRS-One sample]
We gonna ride 'til the wheels fall off
Ha, ha, Louie Dogs, Jedi Mind Tricks
We the truth inside, if you feel you lost
Enemy of Mankind on the track, what's the deal, baby?
We gonna ride 'til the wheels fall off
Vocab, where you at? Warchild, my man
We the truth inside, if you feel you lost
My brother Stoupe, that's how we get down
It's murder rap, yeah, they call me Vinnie Paz
Louie Dogs, it's dirty, baby, it's our fuckin' year
I'm tryin' to shine, baby, tryin' to feed the fam
We will together - or we live apart.
Nothing last forever - love will break your heart.
It's a kind of feeling - we are crawling for.
To a long cold way - through the naked floor.
One day you left me - you did it on your own.
Didn't have the chance to talk with you alone.
I'm walking through the night
And i know hope's in sight
So keep your hands from stupid things,
I knew a girl with a mixed up head
I never thought she would wind up dead
She never meant to take her life
She went too far this time with a knife
Don’t you know that she’s a suicide?
Don’t you know that she’s a suicide?
No one saw inside her head
All they wanted was a body in bed
She worked with people all of the time
She watched her lolly, she lost her mind
Don’t you know that she’s a suicide?
Don’t you know that she’s a suicide?
Suicide
Why?
Suicide
Tried so many times before
People just didn’t listen no more
“Notice me, help me” she cried
Slashed her wrists and then she died
Don’t you know that she’s a suicide?
Don’t you know that she’s a suicide?
Now you know that she’s a suicide
Now you know that she’s a suicide
Suicide
Why?
Are you coming to the nightmare tonight
The world is out that you're ready to try
Don't bring a partner... you just come alone
Tell your folks you're not coming home...
Who's gonna notice as you walk on by
Who really cares if you live or die
and who's gonna miss you as you walk on by
..Have you ever tried suicide...
Goodbye is all you need say
You don't want to see another light of day
Your feeling dirty... cus you've been used
Nobody ever really loved you...
Who's gonna notice as you walk on by
Who really cares if you live or die
and who's gonna miss you as you walk on by
..Have you ever tried suicide...
Write your letter... but write it in blood
Your all alone... there is no god
Your feeling scared, stop running away
Nobody wanted you anyway...
Who's gonna notice as you walk on by
Who really cares if you live or die
and who's gonna miss you as you walk on by
..Have you ever tried suicide...
Come take my hand... come dance with me
Take just one step and you'll be free
You'll see no lies in these blood red eyes
You don't need to dream when you dancing in fire
How does it feel to be alone
How does it feel to be stoned
Always high on your fable
You got no love in your bones
Going up on a suicide ride
Two lost diamonds in the sky
My love used to be alive
Going up on a suicide run
Everybody's gonna get 'em one
A hundred virgins in the sun
How does it feel cold hearted
(so cold hearted)
How does it to be numb
(so cold hearted)
How did it feel when it started
(so cold hearted)
And the end had begun
Going up on a suicide run
Everybody's gonna get 'em one
A hundred virgins in the sun
Going up on a suicide ride
Two lost diamonds in the sky
My love used to be alive
My love used to be alive
Wohoww, woohoww, wohoww
I never meant for you to leave & go far away (no)
And I hate that I caused you so much pain
I'm hurting now
Everywhere I go, I'm facing dark clouds
Barely holding on, I'm fading out
I pushed love far away
It has travelled further than I can go
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience & I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone (cold?)
I've committed suic
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whoow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suicide (whow)
Committed suicide (whooow)
I just jumped off a bridge
And lost the better half of me (whow, yeah)
Turned my back on love
And I feel like a bird without a wing (oohw)
Oh, I'm hurting now
Wish I could go back & slow time down
I would turn that frown into a smile
I wish I could show you how much I've changed
I'd do anything to get it back
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience & I'm dying cause my guardian angel is gone (cold?)
I've committed suic
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whoow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suicide (whow)
Committed suicide
I regret the day she left me behind
Why did I waste our precious time
How can I betray the gift that God has given me (oh no)
I committed suicide
Ever since she left me it feels like my life is reckless out of control
I committed suicide
I'm cursed without a conscience & it feels like my guardian angel is gone
I've committed suic
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suic (whoow)
I don't know, I don't know
I've committed suicide (whow)
Committed suicide (whow)
I regret the day she left me behind
Why did I waste our precious time
It used to be a dirty word
Something I would never say
But now when I take a look at the world
There couldn't be a better way
I killed my mother when I was ten
I fucked my sister with vaseline
Hung my daddy with a telephone wire
You know I'm bleedin'
But you're still wonderin' why
You heard me screamin'
Cryin' out just to die
You thought I loved you
But that was all in the past
As I start crawlin'
I don't know if I can last
Pretty soon I'll be gone
On a long one way ride
Tell your friends not to call
Say it was suicide
I thought of hangin'
But I knew it was wrong
Then thought of poison
But what I had wasn't strong
Electrocution
I thought would make me a star
I stood in the rain
With my electric guitar
Pretty soon I'll be gone
On a long one way ride
Tell your friends not to call
Say it was suicide
I then decided
And put a knife in my heart
It was the answer
But it was only a start
I found a shotgun
And held it close to my heart
And pulled the trigger
Just to be sure I was dead
Pretty soon I'll be gone
On a long one way ride
Tell your friends not to call
Standing in the bathroom with a gun in my hand
Pulling on the trigger just as fast as I can
I can hear her scream as she reaches for the lover beside her
Married by the Bible, she was only sixteen
I was fresh from prison trying to follow my dream
Who'd ever thought I'd be the judge and the jury that tried her?
Blood splattered all over the wall
The gun still smoking as I watch it fall
I run through the door while the sirens blow out on the highway
Maybe they'll catch me and maybe they wont
It really doesn't matter i just had to do things my way
Yeah, yeah, I might just commit suicide, yeah, yeah
He's the only man that I trusted with my life
I can't understand why he ran off with my wife
Now that they're dead what's gonna happen to the baby?
The state will have to raise her just the way they did me
Her mother wanted freedom and I just set her free
She should have never let me see that she was no longer a lady
She called out my name just before she died
She swore she loved me and I almost cried
With trembling hands I reached out and tried to save her
Cheating is something I can understand
But not when it's cheating with my best friend
