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(In the tradition of past breakup posts – See  2010 2009 2008 2007 2006 2005,2004, 2003)

Dear 2011,

WHY ARE YOU DUMPING ME?!

OK.

So usually I’m the one who does the breaking up. I’m the dumper, not the dumpee. But seriously, I’m really kind of annoyed that our time together is over and were it my choice, it wouldn’t end. Ever.

Because this year, you have been incredible to me.

It wasn’t magnificent in terms of major adventures of mischief, travel, or momentous milestones.  Though we’ve had a few of those.

But in the nearly seamless stitching of millions of happy moments.

I am happy. I’ve been happy this year.  I’ve been stressfree, drama-free, healthy, loved, loving, calm, and happy this year.

I feel a little like I’ve never had that before.  I mean. Without worrying about the other shoe dropkicking me in the head.

This year my anxieties and issues dissolved like fog and I was like my children, carefree and happy–enrapt in a moment, and secure in knowing that real happiness is as easy as balancing a spoon on a slightly shiny nose.

I’m so grateful that we were able to share in the celebrations of friends this year with weddings, new children, career milestones, life goal achievements, etc.  The support and love from close family and friends has made this year so much richer.  And I hope I’ve done enough to show support, in kind, to a lot of my close friends going through major transitions and challenges this past year – with moves, careers, financial concerns, health issues, etc.  If I haven’t, I hope to be better next year.

I’m earnestly appreciative that my husband loves me so much that he’ll forgive me when I accidentally wedgie him at 4 in the morning and that he’ll call me from wherever in the world he’s traveling. Jason’s traveled nearly 300K miles this past year and aside from our home and the grocery store, I drove to and from SFO more than I’d care to acknowledge.

I’m ecstatic that my daughter Amelia was good natured and sweet this year and relatively sniffle free.  While pregnant I was able to lie in bed and snuggle her, hold on to her foot while I napped and she occupied herself on the ipad or book.  She’s a good kid and a source of daily sunshine for me.  She’s also proven to be an extraordinarily good natured big sister.

I’m in love with my new daughter Isabelle who I’ve dreamed happy thoughts for nearly all year long, who sleeps on my chest now, snuggly, as I type this.  She is in fantastic health and I’m so glad that her coming into the world and my pregnancy was as smooth and uneventful as one can hope for from a planned c-section.

Nearly every day there are beautiful little happy moments that warm my soul. Isabelle sighing and smiling contentedly in her sleep on my chest. Amelia quacking like a duck while her father has her wrapped up in a towel after a bath.  Amelia kissing Isabelle on the head and saying “Don’t worry Baby. Baby’s cute. I looooove you. Amelia’s here.”  The moment of realizing that I’m the only one awake and the gentle snores of baby, toddler, and husband all in bed together is the most blessed lullabye I could ever hope for.

So again, 2011, must we really break up?

2012 has very large shoes to fill.  Being this happy is all I’ve ever wanted.

Love,

Min Jung